I'll be shooting my first scene on the side street. Its a scene where Ronnie and Blondie meet up for a short exchange and then CUT. I have to be careful, Ronnie has to stay off her feet as much as possible. I am glad her beau will be with her during the shoot. Got a short script done for 2 of my characters as well. The rest will be improvised. A totally new way of going about this for me. Its making me crazy not knowing exactly how things will unfold but nonetheless, I will get thru this and it will be a success. My crew and cast never fails :)
I am home tonight, resting for the shoot tmw. I have a toaster, coffeemaker all lined up. I have two people responsible for Kraft services. I have someone to get the release forms signed. I have Joe Joy in charge of room design. I think I did a pretty good job delegating responsibilities for this shoot.
Richards is also coming tmw, he played Dr Grim in the 2nd shoot of this movie in January. I met him while prop shopping with King and he was working at this store. I asked him where he was from and he replied "New Orleans." I said, "oh, when did you move here?" and he replied "after the hurricane." Oh man, he was one of the many people who the Hurricane Katrina changed his life. I want to ask him eventually, if before the Hurricane Katrina hit, was he intending to move to NYC? Or?
Well Spring has officially sprung, and don't forget turn your clock ahead one hour. This weekend is daylight savings time. Right it's "fall back, spring forward"
Friday, March 31, 2006
I see...KITTENs in the NeAr Future
It seems the vet told my roomate the preggars cat will have baby kittens mid April. Boy am I glad I get to see this before I move out. Little kittens...yay!!
Funny I actually wanted this poster for Saturday's shoot for the psych ward
Been on emails all day dealing with various crew members and some cast members. The days right before the shoot is always nerve racking but in a good way. I get better each time I do this. I got a good feeling about this shoot. For Friday I get to do lunch with Knob and King all the way down town where The Bodies Exhibition is being shown at. The website doesn't give you much information but this review at newyorkcity.com does. It ends this Saturday and three of my deaf friends went already and remarked how good it was. We deafies LOVE visuals. Give us the nitty gritty, we all like chattering about the whys and how of said display. We infer what we already know and apply it to what we just read or seen. I have always had a fondness of anatomy. Had that been a choice during grade, middle or high school, I would've gladly taken it. But no, it was Biology. Ugh and its Latin deriatives *grr*... Perhaps if someone had taken the time to decipher this for me at an earlier age I might've fared better in science. I have always academically done poorly in biology and chemistry, especially chemistry. But give me physic. Ah, I found a way to get through high school and graduate. Thank god for mathematical science. Funny I enjoy many of the science educational programs, again its most more visual and conceptual then a lecture with a slide projector would ever be!
Anyhoo tmw is busy because then its off to work for preperations for Saturdays shoot. Mainly picking up some sodas, and dairy products. Focusing on the shoot line up, making a semi schedule.. my weird and primitive like way of being a director and producer. I will never again have the luxury to use my work grounds again like this after this semesster or this summer (for sure). Even if I keep my job as a media technician, I will not be working there as many hours as I am now. Thank god that Secuirity, Food Services, Housekeeping and Maintence likes me and Eddie. Or we would never get the rooms that we do :) Having a place to shoot is just as important as a good story line, the actors themselves, the script/story and the crew. Without one of these, you cannot have a shoot. Sorry, none, (funny) zero...
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Forms, needles and blood, oh my!
This morning went to the hospital for blood work for next week surgery. Only a week to go. Wow its hard for me to believe the girls are going in as DDs and leaving as a B/C. Mom will be with me so no worries :)
Been looking at various apartments online and decided to join this site NYC Apartment Locators For $40 the membership lasts for 6 months and considering how much more expensive a broker would be, I think this is a good deal. I will call them Monday to make an appt to sit down with someone and discuss what I'm looking for and all that jazz. I did ask Erfo (formerly known as Szymanski) if she wants to move out with me and get a 2 bedroom. I think a lot depends on whether or not there are reasonably priced 2 bedrooms or not. I told her to let me know b4 the end of April so I can focus on either a studio or 2 bedroom. Ive decided no more new roommates for me. I just don't seem to get along with hearing roommies only deafies. Hey Ridor if you're reading this, and still plan to move back to NYC, want in? I have to move out by May 31st.
This morning, about 5am, I woke up and went to the bathroom and to my surprise, there was a note on the door exclaiming the bathroom has been turned into a cat isolation room. I didn't understand, thinking perhaps one of the other cats got into a fight and they had to be separated but instead there are two teenage cats that my hearing roommate found abandon in a crate on the side of the road, shaking and scared! The one cat who is white with gray patches is definitely preggars. Before I left to work, my roommate explained what happened and that he's trying to get them to the vet today or by tmw to make sure they do not have any contagious diseases like Feline Lukemia or... The preggar cat is a sweetheart. I told my roommate what he did was a Mitvah because who knows what would happen to these darling cats if he hadn't come along? Maybe there will be some new kittens in the near future? The cat looks ready to pop. We suspect they were abandon due to this but the other cat, I am not sure if its a boy or a girl? If they are siblings or? Anyways aside from our personal differences, we both are animal rescuers and I would have done the exact same thing. I'm gonna beg Erfo to take pixs of the cats and I can post them later for you to "ohh and ahh" at!
Been looking at various apartments online and decided to join this site NYC Apartment Locators For $40 the membership lasts for 6 months and considering how much more expensive a broker would be, I think this is a good deal. I will call them Monday to make an appt to sit down with someone and discuss what I'm looking for and all that jazz. I did ask Erfo (formerly known as Szymanski) if she wants to move out with me and get a 2 bedroom. I think a lot depends on whether or not there are reasonably priced 2 bedrooms or not. I told her to let me know b4 the end of April so I can focus on either a studio or 2 bedroom. Ive decided no more new roommates for me. I just don't seem to get along with hearing roommies only deafies. Hey Ridor if you're reading this, and still plan to move back to NYC, want in? I have to move out by May 31st.
This morning, about 5am, I woke up and went to the bathroom and to my surprise, there was a note on the door exclaiming the bathroom has been turned into a cat isolation room. I didn't understand, thinking perhaps one of the other cats got into a fight and they had to be separated but instead there are two teenage cats that my hearing roommate found abandon in a crate on the side of the road, shaking and scared! The one cat who is white with gray patches is definitely preggars. Before I left to work, my roommate explained what happened and that he's trying to get them to the vet today or by tmw to make sure they do not have any contagious diseases like Feline Lukemia or... The preggar cat is a sweetheart. I told my roommate what he did was a Mitvah because who knows what would happen to these darling cats if he hadn't come along? Maybe there will be some new kittens in the near future? The cat looks ready to pop. We suspect they were abandon due to this but the other cat, I am not sure if its a boy or a girl? If they are siblings or? Anyways aside from our personal differences, we both are animal rescuers and I would have done the exact same thing. I'm gonna beg Erfo to take pixs of the cats and I can post them later for you to "ohh and ahh" at!
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
I lost the battle, but I won the WAR!
Well
the results from the mediation meeting is as follow
My sec deposit will be used as last month rent, and my roommate has to pay half of the lock fee. But I will move out the end of May. I feel like in a way I won because he's been trying to get me out since Jan and I made it till the end of May so...I am not too disappointed. Its true next fall would be ideal but I'm not gonna miss the summer in my apt this year because of the roaches will multiply by then. The flies will be in droves as they were last year. And the kitchen will stink because my roommate (NOT Erfo) does his dishes every week or two... so in a way its good I am moving out at the end of May :)
Last night was a blast. Between my Taco Bake, Erfo's cream cheese and tomatoes sandwiches (Mom you're gonna love this, I will have her make it for you next week during your visit) and Blondie's choc mousse by David Glass, delish.
Today I am making last minute preparations for the shoot this saturday. Most of the shoot will be improvised. I feel ready but at the same time I won't be able to relax till its over. Finite.
the results from the mediation meeting is as follow
My sec deposit will be used as last month rent, and my roommate has to pay half of the lock fee. But I will move out the end of May. I feel like in a way I won because he's been trying to get me out since Jan and I made it till the end of May so...I am not too disappointed. Its true next fall would be ideal but I'm not gonna miss the summer in my apt this year because of the roaches will multiply by then. The flies will be in droves as they were last year. And the kitchen will stink because my roommate (NOT Erfo) does his dishes every week or two... so in a way its good I am moving out at the end of May :)
Last night was a blast. Between my Taco Bake, Erfo's cream cheese and tomatoes sandwiches (Mom you're gonna love this, I will have her make it for you next week during your visit) and Blondie's choc mousse by David Glass, delish.
Today I am making last minute preparations for the shoot this saturday. Most of the shoot will be improvised. I feel ready but at the same time I won't be able to relax till its over. Finite.
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Time to face the Cookie Monster
In about 10 mins I will leave for the dreaded Mediation Mgt between myself and my roommate who for today I choose to visualize as the Cookie Monster from Sesame Streets. Loud, messy but HARMLESS. Something to laugh at. I'm rather surprised I am not more anxious or nervous. I am at the point that my goal is to leave the mediation satisfied by both parties (if possible?)
I am bringing lotsa paperwork to the mtg. And my Sudoku book :)
Yep. got hooked the other day on the way back from Lancaster. The 9x9 are so hard but finally, last night it clicked. After I master that, I'm moving onto 16x16 but thats a few weeks away. I grew up doing word finds where it reveals a hidden word. Then about 5 years ago felt the allure of crosswords and now its Sudoku.
Speaking of Sudoku, I better sudoku on outta here...
Monday, March 27, 2006
Fellow DEAF film maker
Hey this is cool, one deafie won a Student Academy Award. Check out the article at Kimby Caplan Don't ask me why there's a photo of a transgender next to the article?!
I sure hope they show this film on TV soon?
I sure hope they show this film on TV soon?
Nuttin like Familia
The visit to Lancaster was just lovely! Got to chill and see the folks. I was thrilled when Baba (my grandmother) made this BBQ chicken that is to die for. Not the traditional kind with the thick sauce, no this one is made on the stove top and the sauce is yummy! Plus Mom came for dinner that night so all four of us (Paula made it too) had a wonderful dinner. Then Mom, Paula and I played some Trivia Pursuit :) Here's a copy of the recipe
Stove Top Barbecued Chicken
1 tsp. canola oil
1 med. onion, sliced
1 clove garlic, crushed
1/2 cup ketchup
1/2 cup water
2 Tbs. vinegar
2 Tbs. brown sugar
1 1/2 tsp. worcestershire sauce
1/2 tsp chili powder
1/2 tsp. celery flakes or 1/4 tsp. celery seed
chicken pieces
Coat a frying pan with oil and cook onion and garlic til transparant. In a small bowl mix remaining ingredients
and pour over onion and garlic in pan. Bring to a boil and
simmer for 2 minutes. Add chicken pieces and coat with
sauce, cover pan and simmer for 30 minutes. Turn
pieces of chicken and coat with suace, cover and cook
for 15 minutes. Serve over rice. [Thanks Mom for sending me the recipe!]
Yesterday got to see both of my uncles, and all 3 of my nephews. They weren't the least bit interested in seeing me, the nephews had better things to do like PLAY! My two uncles, I have a 3rd in California but anyways my two uncles in Lancaster feel more like brothers. Being an only child, I am constantly adopting my friends as sisters and brothers. And renaming myself as Aunt Jenny instead of cousin Jenny to my nephews because there's at least 20 years seperating myself and the other grandchildren.
Today I am back to work, this morning opened an escrow account for my back rent. Baba was right, I don't want to go to the mediation meeting tmw without having everything ready. Which I do :) I sure hope we can reach an agreement?
I'm also working on my 2nd draft of the 3rd part of my 4th movie, I know complicated. While waiting for my bus back to NYC last night with Baba, we met this nice young lady name Erica who was also headed back to NYC. She works for a Fashion Designer group in the Empire State Building that makes designs for clothing that are sold at Walmart and other stores. Erica was tickled when I asked her if she would want to be an extra in my movie this saturday. She is really jazzed and a nice girl, but it was very difficult for me to understand her. She speak so softly and often looks away or covers her mouth. We managed tho.
I cannot wait for Saturday to shoot the final scenes of SDI. Then I can relax and finish my semester. I will have to put my films on hold till May because I want to do well on my exams and we have TC ASL week coming up in the middle of April. I am in charge of securing deaf films to show. I got 3 films so far, want at least 2 more. Am begging Flash and Slaw for a flick to show. Keep your fingers crossed!
Stove Top Barbecued Chicken
1 tsp. canola oil
1 med. onion, sliced
1 clove garlic, crushed
1/2 cup ketchup
1/2 cup water
2 Tbs. vinegar
2 Tbs. brown sugar
1 1/2 tsp. worcestershire sauce
1/2 tsp chili powder
1/2 tsp. celery flakes or 1/4 tsp. celery seed
chicken pieces
Coat a frying pan with oil and cook onion and garlic til transparant. In a small bowl mix remaining ingredients
and pour over onion and garlic in pan. Bring to a boil and
simmer for 2 minutes. Add chicken pieces and coat with
sauce, cover pan and simmer for 30 minutes. Turn
pieces of chicken and coat with suace, cover and cook
for 15 minutes. Serve over rice. [Thanks Mom for sending me the recipe!]
Yesterday got to see both of my uncles, and all 3 of my nephews. They weren't the least bit interested in seeing me, the nephews had better things to do like PLAY! My two uncles, I have a 3rd in California but anyways my two uncles in Lancaster feel more like brothers. Being an only child, I am constantly adopting my friends as sisters and brothers. And renaming myself as Aunt Jenny instead of cousin Jenny to my nephews because there's at least 20 years seperating myself and the other grandchildren.
Today I am back to work, this morning opened an escrow account for my back rent. Baba was right, I don't want to go to the mediation meeting tmw without having everything ready. Which I do :) I sure hope we can reach an agreement?
I'm also working on my 2nd draft of the 3rd part of my 4th movie, I know complicated. While waiting for my bus back to NYC last night with Baba, we met this nice young lady name Erica who was also headed back to NYC. She works for a Fashion Designer group in the Empire State Building that makes designs for clothing that are sold at Walmart and other stores. Erica was tickled when I asked her if she would want to be an extra in my movie this saturday. She is really jazzed and a nice girl, but it was very difficult for me to understand her. She speak so softly and often looks away or covers her mouth. We managed tho.
I cannot wait for Saturday to shoot the final scenes of SDI. Then I can relax and finish my semester. I will have to put my films on hold till May because I want to do well on my exams and we have TC ASL week coming up in the middle of April. I am in charge of securing deaf films to show. I got 3 films so far, want at least 2 more. Am begging Flash and Slaw for a flick to show. Keep your fingers crossed!
Friday, March 24, 2006
I Hid It Too Well
Argh
don't you just hate it when you put something away in a "safe" place and then for the life of you, you can't remember where? Is that ADD? Or normalcy?
I decided to take a train instad of the bus. Being the train has more choices in travel times but the bus is cheaper. Guess my allergies outweigh my cheapness (I just didnt want to feel rush trying to catch the bus at noon today). I always am like that with myself but with people I love, I am extremely $generous.$ Go figure, I think part of it is the fact both my Mom and my grandparents raised me. Mom never had a steady income and my grandparents were children of the depression as well as 1st generations Americans. I believe that and the fact my Uncle Rob and I share a lot of common tendencies (He's cheaper than me!) I can throw away holey underwears :) I value experiences such as traveling over material possessions overall when it comes to my spending habits.
I am so excited to see my girl, Paula tmw nite. Really be able to catch up. Maybe we'll go out for a bite and then shoot some pool? I sure would like that.
I'm happy to report the "Deaf Effect" will commence due to two of my friends will probably join me in this show *yay* Perhaps we can have some lines in ASL? I already broach the subject during the 1st night of rehersal with the director. I think if there's a few of us, he may seriously consider it. While if its just me by myself in the show, probably nada. Powers in numbers. I plan to also invite 2 of my gays to join. I love that term used by Kathy Griffin where she refeers to her close friends who are gay as "My Gays" like its "my girls" or ya know I mean.
don't you just hate it when you put something away in a "safe" place and then for the life of you, you can't remember where? Is that ADD? Or normalcy?
I decided to take a train instad of the bus. Being the train has more choices in travel times but the bus is cheaper. Guess my allergies outweigh my cheapness (I just didnt want to feel rush trying to catch the bus at noon today). I always am like that with myself but with people I love, I am extremely $generous.$ Go figure, I think part of it is the fact both my Mom and my grandparents raised me. Mom never had a steady income and my grandparents were children of the depression as well as 1st generations Americans. I believe that and the fact my Uncle Rob and I share a lot of common tendencies (He's cheaper than me!) I can throw away holey underwears :) I value experiences such as traveling over material possessions overall when it comes to my spending habits.
I am so excited to see my girl, Paula tmw nite. Really be able to catch up. Maybe we'll go out for a bite and then shoot some pool? I sure would like that.
I'm happy to report the "Deaf Effect" will commence due to two of my friends will probably join me in this show *yay* Perhaps we can have some lines in ASL? I already broach the subject during the 1st night of rehersal with the director. I think if there's a few of us, he may seriously consider it. While if its just me by myself in the show, probably nada. Powers in numbers. I plan to also invite 2 of my gays to join. I love that term used by Kathy Griffin where she refeers to her close friends who are gay as "My Gays" like its "my girls" or ya know I mean.
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Autxmxtxc Sxpxrstxr
I finally found information about the show I will be involved with at (Name of play withdrawn due to director's request 4/20/06)
Feeling a lot better today. Thank you sudafed! Am getting ready to start the script. I still need some extras but I think it will all fall into place. I am so jazzed to get out of town tmw. I love NYC but you have to take a break periodically from the city, else you'll go bonkers!
Feeling a lot better today. Thank you sudafed! Am getting ready to start the script. I still need some extras but I think it will all fall into place. I am so jazzed to get out of town tmw. I love NYC but you have to take a break periodically from the city, else you'll go bonkers!
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Racoon Eyes
Today suffered from serious dark under eyes! Its due to two factors, a bout of insonmia and ALLERGIES! I must pray to the Zyrtec Fairy for a refill soon. I do have sudafed on hand but tired me forgot to take it before I left for work and school. I hate Spring only because my allergies are at its worst.
Saw "Chronicles of Naria" with a bunch of friends tonight. It was pretty good. Yeah a lot of Christian undertones but I grew up reading the 1st book and watching the cartoon version. This one was very good. I hope Hollywood will do the other books in this series?
Got to hang some with Joe Joy tonight. He was having a good hair day! He is my set designer/prop guy for the 3rd part of SDI. I am getting a feel of who can make it and who cant? I may have to advertise for actors on DNN & other websites. I am so ready to get the script on paper. I have the scenes all ready in my head and some of the dialogues. Its all good. I cannot wait for the final results. It s gonna be good folks. Worth the wait. I am very proud of everyone who has been a part of this. I dream of paying a crew and actors in future productions. I love teaching but I also love filming and its hard for me to find a balance between the two. I am also dealing with senioristis at grad school this semester big time.
I have been contemplating on whether or not it would be of interest to start gathering references made to the "deaf experiences", "Hearing/deaf relationshsips", the variety of interest expressed in deaf blogs? I know there s a few deaf blog roll but is anyone even bothering to research the effect it has on the deaf community and does it run parralell to the hearing community? I did bring that up in class tonight, my professor is agitated that theres no real new literary or art related movements at this time. Yea I agree we are behind in a lot of ways when it comes to art and media related areas. I hope we catch up soon in the next decade. I'm still reeling from this young lady who at a wise age of 19 has this to say As Ridor calls her, "the crazy woman" which is really a child. and doesn't know what she's talking about. I have a lot of Deaf pride. There's nothing wrong with that nor do I go around feeling sorry for myself and abuse the dole system. She really should've thought twice before that posting. It reflects poorly on her and no one else.
I'm like Bill Clinton
according to this test;
Funny in the description it mentions "Chameleon" why am I not surpirsed?
Funny in the description it mentions "Chameleon" why am I not surpirsed?
[Strike a Pose] *clicks*
I love that movie Twsiter. It brings out the metereologist in me. When I was a child, I remember thunderstorms and sitting in my living room with my family nearby, watching the lighting, feeling/hearing the thunder roar. What an amazing show Mother Nature gives us. I also enjoy hail. Of course not the size of baseballs but once a few years back me and Sorry got caught in a hail storm and we had to pull off the highway to wait it out. It was something. We watched the hail pelt down for a good 5 to 10 minutes! Also it seems to me that the coloring of the area before an eclipse or during lighting runs parallel to the way it looks in my dreams. When I dream, its never sunny nor is it ever dark either. Weird a twilight feel to thunderstorms or any storms and the dreamworld.
The shoot was an "all day affair" Everyone looked smashing! Er rather ShmokIng! *sizzles* What can I say, we looked HOT. I cant name names, but we have done a serivce for the deaf community and sexed it up some. The first girl, warrior but sadly no weapon. She has an haughtiness about her. The 2nd one is my dear friend Blondie who is a natural! She is an actress and I think that helps. Oh shes drop dead gorgeous too. But I will give her credit, she took a lot of risks and poses. Then there was me. I hope there s a couple of decent pictures in the bunch. I didnt feel exactly sexy or pretty today but I did the best I could, some shots I did feel good. Some I didn't. I'm glad I did it tho. The 4th girl, what a closet exhibitiionist. Boy, she had some poses that made my jaw drop. I never knew her to be so bold, more power to her. And I want to add for any family members who may be reading this that the photographer was a complete gentleman. I enjoyed his company today and he was very kind to ask his friend if he could shoot us there at the studio. I mean its his friend's studio all the way downtown. This guy who owns the studio works for ABC and other big names like that. He was shooting one actress earlier from a soap opera. I didn't reconize her nor do I watch soaps so that makes it harder. I wish I did know her name for the sake of knowing. So one day if she makes it big, I can brag, "yeah me and my friends were also having a photo shoot in the other room from so and so."
My roommate, otherwise known as the ASS. Sent me this email last night. THANK YOU ASSHOLE. I am so tired of his emails and he incessive need to be "heard" and validated by something or someone. He s so dumb because if he would just shut up and pay half the lock. I would be happy to be taken advantage of financially for the remainder of my stay here. I mean its ridiculous for him not to pay $75 for the lock and I then will pay him electric and he pays less than $150 in bills to live here! I mean in the long run he saves $$ but no, not WIPEASS, he is like a dog with a bone. Just can't let it go.
I leave for Lancaster, finally. Its been too long since Ive seen the folks back home. I enjoy my family so much. I will also get to see my good friend Paula, who I've known since I was 12. She fell out of touch 2-3 years ago and I was pretty hurt because the last time we hung we had fun and say goodnight. No fights, nothing and then her phone was disconnected and she moved to some Valley nearby. I told her shes like my sister. Don't disappear like that, she's someone who has seen me through it all. Middle school, 1st apartment, dating, etc etc. Shes been in my life almost 20 years.
Speaking of family, Knob is like a sister. The other night when she saw me and asked me how I was? You know how it is, when someone really knows you, you can't be all fake and say, everything is ok. No, instead I burst into tears. We snuck away and I had a little crying spell and Knob boy I just love her and can relaxs so I told her my stresses (school, my films, surgery, roommate bullshit, etc etc) I didn't mean to either because I know her job is one that requires a lot of emotional support so the last thing she needs to do is deal with me. She was so good to me and Knob if youre reading. Thank you again, mwah!
The shoot was an "all day affair" Everyone looked smashing! Er rather ShmokIng! *sizzles* What can I say, we looked HOT. I cant name names, but we have done a serivce for the deaf community and sexed it up some. The first girl, warrior but sadly no weapon. She has an haughtiness about her. The 2nd one is my dear friend Blondie who is a natural! She is an actress and I think that helps. Oh shes drop dead gorgeous too. But I will give her credit, she took a lot of risks and poses. Then there was me. I hope there s a couple of decent pictures in the bunch. I didnt feel exactly sexy or pretty today but I did the best I could, some shots I did feel good. Some I didn't. I'm glad I did it tho. The 4th girl, what a closet exhibitiionist. Boy, she had some poses that made my jaw drop. I never knew her to be so bold, more power to her. And I want to add for any family members who may be reading this that the photographer was a complete gentleman. I enjoyed his company today and he was very kind to ask his friend if he could shoot us there at the studio. I mean its his friend's studio all the way downtown. This guy who owns the studio works for ABC and other big names like that. He was shooting one actress earlier from a soap opera. I didn't reconize her nor do I watch soaps so that makes it harder. I wish I did know her name for the sake of knowing. So one day if she makes it big, I can brag, "yeah me and my friends were also having a photo shoot in the other room from so and so."
My roommate, otherwise known as the ASS. Sent me this email last night. THANK YOU ASSHOLE. I am so tired of his emails and he incessive need to be "heard" and validated by something or someone. He s so dumb because if he would just shut up and pay half the lock. I would be happy to be taken advantage of financially for the remainder of my stay here. I mean its ridiculous for him not to pay $75 for the lock and I then will pay him electric and he pays less than $150 in bills to live here! I mean in the long run he saves $$ but no, not WIPEASS, he is like a dog with a bone. Just can't let it go.
I leave for Lancaster, finally. Its been too long since Ive seen the folks back home. I enjoy my family so much. I will also get to see my good friend Paula, who I've known since I was 12. She fell out of touch 2-3 years ago and I was pretty hurt because the last time we hung we had fun and say goodnight. No fights, nothing and then her phone was disconnected and she moved to some Valley nearby. I told her shes like my sister. Don't disappear like that, she's someone who has seen me through it all. Middle school, 1st apartment, dating, etc etc. Shes been in my life almost 20 years.
Speaking of family, Knob is like a sister. The other night when she saw me and asked me how I was? You know how it is, when someone really knows you, you can't be all fake and say, everything is ok. No, instead I burst into tears. We snuck away and I had a little crying spell and Knob boy I just love her and can relaxs so I told her my stresses (school, my films, surgery, roommate bullshit, etc etc) I didn't mean to either because I know her job is one that requires a lot of emotional support so the last thing she needs to do is deal with me. She was so good to me and Knob if youre reading. Thank you again, mwah!
Sunday, March 19, 2006
First nite of rehersal
I have rehersal from 6 to 9 tonight for a role as an extra at a rock show. The rehersal is way down by Wall street area. I am a little nervous because I havent told them I am deaf and hope I can follow along with whats happening? I got the script this morning but its too hard to read on my sidekick. I need to print out a hard copy to review but don't have a printer. Gonna wait till to work to print it. I hope to secure some additional extras tonight for my April 1st shoot. I am getting worried about the locations because I don't want to set up the shoot and then not be able to use the rooms I want to use at TC. Most of the depts have been extremely helpful but the dorm life, *hmph* another story.
Tuesday 4 of us have a photo shoot line up. I am doing a pin up girl thing. I have a corset and a nice skirt. Now all I need are shoes. I can't wait to see the others in their outfits. I cannot comment on theirs because I am sure some of the girls want to keep this low key. I did tell Blondie we could do some shoots together esepcially if we re in the same theme mode.
Tmw is back to work, spring break ends tonight at midnight. It was a good one, not too terribly exciting but I did get to relaxs some and the baby shower was a success. My only down point this week was tues with the roommate drama crap. He's been extremely civil to me since, it feels back to normal but I wonder what the end of the month will bring?
Tuesday 4 of us have a photo shoot line up. I am doing a pin up girl thing. I have a corset and a nice skirt. Now all I need are shoes. I can't wait to see the others in their outfits. I cannot comment on theirs because I am sure some of the girls want to keep this low key. I did tell Blondie we could do some shoots together esepcially if we re in the same theme mode.
Tmw is back to work, spring break ends tonight at midnight. It was a good one, not too terribly exciting but I did get to relaxs some and the baby shower was a success. My only down point this week was tues with the roommate drama crap. He's been extremely civil to me since, it feels back to normal but I wonder what the end of the month will bring?
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Peanuts NY Style Showah
Yesterday Blondie and I met up and went shopping for baby shower decorations for today's party. We aimed for orange and silver, Ronnie's favorite colors. We also made these cute peanut babies. We brought regular shelled peanuts and added eyes, diapers and other fun stuff. No two were alike. Some had rattles, other's had baby bottles etc etc...I even made this "trendy" one were it was covered in sparklies and we also made a "crack head baby" with one eye :) Everyone got a good kick out of it, see Ronnie's nickname for the baby is Peanuts. *right because at one time it was as small as a peanut* Bianca made these cute cupcakes and the place had a nice festive feel.
This was probably the 2nd babyshower in my whole life. King gave several gifts that included this cute 'Veggie Out" baby outfit, with picture of vegetables and she also gave Peanut a cute hat that looked like a carrot. I enjoyed myself and I got to hang with Keri's baby Lochan. What a sweetie, a drooler too but, what a cutie! He has these amazing blue eyes. Lochan is 7 months old and in my opinion looks way more like Keri then Nick, except he has Nick's nose. Man I am gonna miss Ronnie but now I have an excuse to visit Maine. I've gone 2xs and always enjoyed myself.
Tmw Louis the sound guy is coming over. I just want to show him what the problem is and ask him what can be done about it? I don't plan to deal with the sound issues till after the editing is done. I mean sound is always, always last. I'm a little weirded out about the fact that probably sometime next week my grant request will arrive at the Experimental TV office and they will view my sample footages. I mean I am not there to explain anything and its the fact I have to let go and wish for the best.
I forgot to mention earlier this week but two different people said that I reminded them of two different actresses. One is Toni Collette;
and the other is Juilanne Nicholson;
I dunno if I really resemble either one but its ironic to me that I got compared to both of them.
This was probably the 2nd babyshower in my whole life. King gave several gifts that included this cute 'Veggie Out" baby outfit, with picture of vegetables and she also gave Peanut a cute hat that looked like a carrot. I enjoyed myself and I got to hang with Keri's baby Lochan. What a sweetie, a drooler too but, what a cutie! He has these amazing blue eyes. Lochan is 7 months old and in my opinion looks way more like Keri then Nick, except he has Nick's nose. Man I am gonna miss Ronnie but now I have an excuse to visit Maine. I've gone 2xs and always enjoyed myself.
Tmw Louis the sound guy is coming over. I just want to show him what the problem is and ask him what can be done about it? I don't plan to deal with the sound issues till after the editing is done. I mean sound is always, always last. I'm a little weirded out about the fact that probably sometime next week my grant request will arrive at the Experimental TV office and they will view my sample footages. I mean I am not there to explain anything and its the fact I have to let go and wish for the best.
I forgot to mention earlier this week but two different people said that I reminded them of two different actresses. One is Toni Collette;
and the other is Juilanne Nicholson;
I dunno if I really resemble either one but its ironic to me that I got compared to both of them.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Friends who can truly ACT!
Saw Alexa's and Guthrie's play "Children of the Lesser God" it was sooo good. Way better than the movie, this play made me finally appreciate the story and how it was intended to be portrayed! Alexa you made this play relatable! Thumbs up, I forgot it was you after a while. Now thats acting!
Also saw Alexa's mom, she looks great, I just adore her mom. Her mom reminds me of my grandmother, Baba. The same gracefulness and energy comes from them both. They are both strong and unconventional women!
Mailed out my grant yesterday, whew! I will have to wait 6 weeks before I find anything out? I am somewhat discourage with my 4th movie due to having to do voice overs. I cannot get the words in sync with the performers' mouths. I do have a sound guy who I met thru Craigslist who may come out on Sunday and see what can be done. We will barter ASL lessons in exchange for sound editing lessons. He does this professionally for a lot of music videos, check him out at movie spoof madness
Had a nice dinner with J and Peep last night before the play. It was good to see J, I known him since I was 15! They both will help with ASL week and they both were in my 3rd movies, PAWs last summer.
I got to start getting props for April 1st shoot and I am dire need of a location to shoot at. I was planning to use the nearby dorm but the head of the dorm life was like "no, liability issues" which I totally get but sucks for me anyways. Gonna try to the mayors office, they have a list of locations that film makers can use in the area but I wonder what the fees are like?
Also saw Alexa's mom, she looks great, I just adore her mom. Her mom reminds me of my grandmother, Baba. The same gracefulness and energy comes from them both. They are both strong and unconventional women!
Mailed out my grant yesterday, whew! I will have to wait 6 weeks before I find anything out? I am somewhat discourage with my 4th movie due to having to do voice overs. I cannot get the words in sync with the performers' mouths. I do have a sound guy who I met thru Craigslist who may come out on Sunday and see what can be done. We will barter ASL lessons in exchange for sound editing lessons. He does this professionally for a lot of music videos, check him out at movie spoof madness
Had a nice dinner with J and Peep last night before the play. It was good to see J, I known him since I was 15! They both will help with ASL week and they both were in my 3rd movies, PAWs last summer.
I got to start getting props for April 1st shoot and I am dire need of a location to shoot at. I was planning to use the nearby dorm but the head of the dorm life was like "no, liability issues" which I totally get but sucks for me anyways. Gonna try to the mayors office, they have a list of locations that film makers can use in the area but I wonder what the fees are like?
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Steam coming from his ears!
Well my roommate is PISSED. The mediation meeting was cancelled due to the terp backed out this morning. I was not pleased either because this is spring break and I couldve gone to Lancaster this week to visit the folks and be back by this weekend for other commitments! Ach my roommate is throwing a temper trantrum, left me a LONG note on my door saying
"Martha called to cancel the meeting, however if you withdraw your request and just wear your hearing aid, we could go ahead TODAY. (then later he states) I would like you to seriously considering withdrawing your request, especially if another appointment cannot be secured for this week. And I should remind you that at the end of the month I can file a formal petition to order you to vacate and schedule a court date." ..... BYTE ME! Ugh and I txt msg him and explaned the 21st is not good because I have commitments that day and he's all like "have you even looked for another place to live?" I replied "No, because I'm not leaving (added a smiley face)" and then I emailed him once again saying all he has to do is sign something saying he will pay half the lock in order for me to pay 1/4th of the electric. That means he pays at the most $200 to live there, while Szymanski and I take care of the rest. I also said there must be something in writing about my security deposit. Now I get the feeling I'm gonna have to start locking my door during the day while I'm out. I stopped about 2 weeks ago to show good faith and I lock it when I'm sleeping, changing or do not want to be disturbed. I know he likes to let Tom out of my room when I'm not home and while I don't mind normally, not right now when things have gone sour again. Poor Tom, he loves going where he pleases.
Well my attempt to burn samples of my movies for the grant I'm vying for failed 2xs last night for various reasons. I'm trying again now. Might as well be productive if the meeting was cancelled. I did call and tell Martha that she may want to use a different terp agency because that was extremely unprofessional. I hope its not one of those lame ass, non RID certified terp agencies. I need someone who is competent, especially in regards to legal matters.
I do have one thing to look forward to today, dinner with Szymanski. She brought Lobster raviolli for dinner and will pick up salad and bread, I'm grabbing drinks and dessert for us. Plus she always cheers me up, especially when my other roommate has rattled my nerves like he has today. Joe Joy assured me I could stay with him if things get weird during or around my surgery next month and my Moms in town. Trust me, I know Mom is like a protective Mama Bear. It wouldnt take much to set her off, if my roommate provoked her. Half of me wouldn't mind because my Mom can give a good tongue lashing when needed. She's a yeller thats for sure. I am so happy Mom will be visiting me next month. I will set something up for her to meet my friends that she hasnt met yet on the day of her arrival. I'm gonna try to find a place with a pool table.
Ugh I am just ugh, I was starting to feel relaxs here and now my defenses have gone to "red alert" *imitates Star Trek red alert siren* thats what I'm feeling. Damn I wish I had a holodeck, then I could try my case out in court and see how it plays out without suffering any consquences. I do believe holodecks are just a matter of time. Hopefully while I'm alive.
"Martha called to cancel the meeting, however if you withdraw your request and just wear your hearing aid, we could go ahead TODAY. (then later he states) I would like you to seriously considering withdrawing your request, especially if another appointment cannot be secured for this week. And I should remind you that at the end of the month I can file a formal petition to order you to vacate and schedule a court date." ..... BYTE ME! Ugh and I txt msg him and explaned the 21st is not good because I have commitments that day and he's all like "have you even looked for another place to live?" I replied "No, because I'm not leaving (added a smiley face)" and then I emailed him once again saying all he has to do is sign something saying he will pay half the lock in order for me to pay 1/4th of the electric. That means he pays at the most $200 to live there, while Szymanski and I take care of the rest. I also said there must be something in writing about my security deposit. Now I get the feeling I'm gonna have to start locking my door during the day while I'm out. I stopped about 2 weeks ago to show good faith and I lock it when I'm sleeping, changing or do not want to be disturbed. I know he likes to let Tom out of my room when I'm not home and while I don't mind normally, not right now when things have gone sour again. Poor Tom, he loves going where he pleases.
Well my attempt to burn samples of my movies for the grant I'm vying for failed 2xs last night for various reasons. I'm trying again now. Might as well be productive if the meeting was cancelled. I did call and tell Martha that she may want to use a different terp agency because that was extremely unprofessional. I hope its not one of those lame ass, non RID certified terp agencies. I need someone who is competent, especially in regards to legal matters.
I do have one thing to look forward to today, dinner with Szymanski. She brought Lobster raviolli for dinner and will pick up salad and bread, I'm grabbing drinks and dessert for us. Plus she always cheers me up, especially when my other roommate has rattled my nerves like he has today. Joe Joy assured me I could stay with him if things get weird during or around my surgery next month and my Moms in town. Trust me, I know Mom is like a protective Mama Bear. It wouldnt take much to set her off, if my roommate provoked her. Half of me wouldn't mind because my Mom can give a good tongue lashing when needed. She's a yeller thats for sure. I am so happy Mom will be visiting me next month. I will set something up for her to meet my friends that she hasnt met yet on the day of her arrival. I'm gonna try to find a place with a pool table.
Ugh I am just ugh, I was starting to feel relaxs here and now my defenses have gone to "red alert" *imitates Star Trek red alert siren* thats what I'm feeling. Damn I wish I had a holodeck, then I could try my case out in court and see how it plays out without suffering any consquences. I do believe holodecks are just a matter of time. Hopefully while I'm alive.
Monday, March 13, 2006
Experimental Television Grant
I am applying for a grant for "finishing" funds to complete my 4 movies and distribute them to my volunteers. I printed out 3 copies of my proposals, actually 4, 3 are going to the grant application and one is my copy for future references. I am currently burning samples of my work. I am asking for $1500. $500 per project. I really hope I get it and it will help me to make a master copy of each movie and then get them to all the people who were involved in the past 2 years. I am not sure how much a post production company charges? I am also gonna test my samples on my DVD player that hooked up to my TV. Nothing is worse then getting unviewable footage. It drives me mad cuz you did all the work and it should be there and then it not. Soon I will see Joe Joy. I wonder how things are?
Good news for a different grant I applied for on behalf of the TC ASL club that I co chair, was granted :) That means ASL week in April is on! Its gonna be fun. I am looking forward to the preprations for that. Szmansky is in charge of Lit/Poetry, King will take care of Art and Nutter in charge of live entertainment. Of course I am in charge of film night. I have already contacted some film makers, nada responses. Means I will have to follow up again later this week. If need be, I can always do a "chronological" theme on deaf films.
Yay I was able to figure out how to burn all 3 samples on 1 DVD! Just hafta import em all and give them titles. As soon as its done, I gotta jet over to see Joe!
Good news for a different grant I applied for on behalf of the TC ASL club that I co chair, was granted :) That means ASL week in April is on! Its gonna be fun. I am looking forward to the preprations for that. Szmansky is in charge of Lit/Poetry, King will take care of Art and Nutter in charge of live entertainment. Of course I am in charge of film night. I have already contacted some film makers, nada responses. Means I will have to follow up again later this week. If need be, I can always do a "chronological" theme on deaf films.
Yay I was able to figure out how to burn all 3 samples on 1 DVD! Just hafta import em all and give them titles. As soon as its done, I gotta jet over to see Joe!
Casting director
If I ever become famous, I am gonna do a movie with Ty and these two guys as brothers. What do you think? Could they get away with it?
Benicio Del Toro
Adrian Grenier
Ty Giordano
Am at work and its dead here today due to spring break. Mick wants me to do inventory, boring. I am trying to put it off for as long as possible!
Last night I watched Flavor Flav season finale with Szymanski and I couldn't believe he picked Hoopz over New York! Dumb man.
Benicio Del Toro
Adrian Grenier
Ty Giordano
Am at work and its dead here today due to spring break. Mick wants me to do inventory, boring. I am trying to put it off for as long as possible!
Last night I watched Flavor Flav season finale with Szymanski and I couldn't believe he picked Hoopz over New York! Dumb man.
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Tom Uber Perlis
Good news people, I'm making some real progress with my editing today. Some days I can't get started and other days like today, its a breeze. I just have to sit myself down without any excuses and just do it! Today I am working on the 2nd part of SDI, putting the scenes in order and finalizing which scenes to use to save time later when other people do their voice overs. I have to schedule more of them this week and next.
Yesterday the damn dreamweaver (basic) workshop was cancelled again, as you can imagine I was not please. Anyhoo came home and cleaned, laundry and installed my FCP (Final Cut Pro) editing software. It came in this monster sized package. Took about 4 hrs to install! But I feel confident now especially after taking the FCP workshop on Thurs and Friday with Angel. I know if I have any questions, I can swing by his office and bug him. He didn't take me very seriously last summer. Espcially after I borrowed a light for the PAWs shoot and Handler accidently broke the clamp. Angel wouldn't loan me anymore lights :( But so far, I've worked my way back into his good graces *whew*.
Met a friend of Szymanski's last night. He directs commericials and music videos. Also does wardrobes for feature filsm, cool huh? He seems interested in my work, but to be honest. I am a little shy to show people who are in the industry because I am sure my work seems very novice. I know I have potential but I don't have all the skills yet. I want my work to show some level of professionalism, its important to me.
Thursday's night was fun. I enjoyed going to see the band Group Sounds play. I got to see Alexi too who begged me to help paint back the house in Brooklyn this Saturday (yesterday) but I declined. Its almost 2 hour commute, no thanks. The band member Joe was happy to see me, gave me a big old hug and kiss on the cheek. I also saw Ryan the modeling agent there too. Its ironic but I enjoyed talking with Blondie, King and Knob more than going to the club itself. By the way it was this cool Jewish place called Mo Pitkin's. You can check em out at
Mo Pitkin's I would like to go back sometimes and try out their food.
Blondie did a terrific job in her show last night. It was cute and a lot of fun. Eddie made it out and surpirsed me by bringing along Joanne, an old co worker of mine. I adore Joanne, she's this loud mouth, butch, in your face woman. She and I hit it off when I first started working at Media Services a year ago in Febraury. She brought her girlfriend Isabel who is very nice too. I also saw Westbury, he asked about Tom which of course I replied, he is his same old, bitchy self. Westbury gave Tom his middle name which is Uber (it meams 'evil' in German). I got to meet Vess beau, very cute, just like their pictures.
Only 2 more days till the mediation meeting between myself and my roommate. Things in general have calmed down immensely, between us. We are civil and polite. I am glad he leaves me alone more now. I only plan to dispute the amount I pay at the meeting and the right to have a lock on my door. Nothing more. I will also definitely print out the innappropriate emails he sent me. To ask he not do that again in the future? I am much more relaxs these days because I don't think he wants me to move out for real anyways. Besides who else would put up with him and his inability to be considerate of others?
Yesterday the damn dreamweaver (basic) workshop was cancelled again, as you can imagine I was not please. Anyhoo came home and cleaned, laundry and installed my FCP (Final Cut Pro) editing software. It came in this monster sized package. Took about 4 hrs to install! But I feel confident now especially after taking the FCP workshop on Thurs and Friday with Angel. I know if I have any questions, I can swing by his office and bug him. He didn't take me very seriously last summer. Espcially after I borrowed a light for the PAWs shoot and Handler accidently broke the clamp. Angel wouldn't loan me anymore lights :( But so far, I've worked my way back into his good graces *whew*.
Met a friend of Szymanski's last night. He directs commericials and music videos. Also does wardrobes for feature filsm, cool huh? He seems interested in my work, but to be honest. I am a little shy to show people who are in the industry because I am sure my work seems very novice. I know I have potential but I don't have all the skills yet. I want my work to show some level of professionalism, its important to me.
Thursday's night was fun. I enjoyed going to see the band Group Sounds play. I got to see Alexi too who begged me to help paint back the house in Brooklyn this Saturday (yesterday) but I declined. Its almost 2 hour commute, no thanks. The band member Joe was happy to see me, gave me a big old hug and kiss on the cheek. I also saw Ryan the modeling agent there too. Its ironic but I enjoyed talking with Blondie, King and Knob more than going to the club itself. By the way it was this cool Jewish place called Mo Pitkin's. You can check em out at
Mo Pitkin's I would like to go back sometimes and try out their food.
Blondie did a terrific job in her show last night. It was cute and a lot of fun. Eddie made it out and surpirsed me by bringing along Joanne, an old co worker of mine. I adore Joanne, she's this loud mouth, butch, in your face woman. She and I hit it off when I first started working at Media Services a year ago in Febraury. She brought her girlfriend Isabel who is very nice too. I also saw Westbury, he asked about Tom which of course I replied, he is his same old, bitchy self. Westbury gave Tom his middle name which is Uber (it meams 'evil' in German). I got to meet Vess beau, very cute, just like their pictures.
Only 2 more days till the mediation meeting between myself and my roommate. Things in general have calmed down immensely, between us. We are civil and polite. I am glad he leaves me alone more now. I only plan to dispute the amount I pay at the meeting and the right to have a lock on my door. Nothing more. I will also definitely print out the innappropriate emails he sent me. To ask he not do that again in the future? I am much more relaxs these days because I don't think he wants me to move out for real anyways. Besides who else would put up with him and his inability to be considerate of others?
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Yoda the overlooked spokesperson for ASL
I've been saying it for years but if you listen to how Yoda talks, its like listening to ASL. I would like to see Yoda learn some ASL in any upcomming productions of the Star Wars Franchise. Since he speaks it anyways.
I do seriously tho believe Star Wars Trilogy (the early works), helped shaped future generations. Humans seem to have a weird love affair of machines. It brings us music, images, information, communications etc etc but it also isolates us. I don't know, its hard to believe that less then 10 years ago the WWW was really born. Its not even the computer itself, its the internet.
Right now on Wednesday nights, I am taking Deaf Art & Lit. The first thing we learned was "What is Art?" Art is something uncanny. Something new or already known but presented in a fresh new way. I am beginning to understand how I may be able to do my paper for my final grade and do it as a art/lit review. I may take a history period perpective and see what were the societys values at the time, mainstream and see what art is presented in contrast with the mainstream? I wouldl ike to find some "Guerilla Deaf Art" examples of extremist pov. I will stop by and bother Rosen tmw. He's the director of the ASL studies at TC. I think I will either pick 1 artist or a group of Artist working for one cause. I also would like the work to be from a deaf artist raised in a deaf institute prior to the 60s.
Lately I have been feeling torn. I only have till next August to fulfill my film making, acting, web design related activities, studies. I feel like I am under the gun somewhat. I know I will love teaching. I loved working at MSD. Plus I need a steady income and a new place to live next fall amd the joyous occassion to repay my educational loans back. It seems all 'sooo responsible.'
Last fall I was kinda bitchy the first few weeks of Septemeber. I was still riding on the high from shooting PAWs, doing SSP at the Light House for the Blind in Seattle and ofc my birthday which everyone knows I am so corny about birthdays, especially when its mine. And its August. Time to have fun....
But
September is like this stern authority figure, leaning over me in a black dress, a pair glasses at the end of her nose. My biggest concern is the work hours. I have never been a 8 to 4 kind of girl. I think its pure torture. I think it ages people too. If you wake up feeling lousy rather than rested, how can that be a good thing? Nyhoo, I have several major goals before I have to grow up; To finish all 4 of my movies. To have the finished project on DVDs to give to all of my volunteers and to get a website up and running. Then I gotta tuck it aside and work FT, teaching HS kids ASL. 5 days a week, at an ungodly hour. Unless they have a great afterschool porgram, maybe I can work out a 4 long day a week (Mon thru Thurs) and assit the after school programs. I could do it 4 days (10 hrs a day) a week then 5 (8 hrs a day), less torturous. And I am not one of those kinds of people who can work FT, and be involved in many activities during the week. I end up spending the weekend trying to rest, only to wake up early once again on a monday morning, ugh. This business of 5 days of week was created by some evil farmer, I just know it.
I do seriously tho believe Star Wars Trilogy (the early works), helped shaped future generations. Humans seem to have a weird love affair of machines. It brings us music, images, information, communications etc etc but it also isolates us. I don't know, its hard to believe that less then 10 years ago the WWW was really born. Its not even the computer itself, its the internet.
Right now on Wednesday nights, I am taking Deaf Art & Lit. The first thing we learned was "What is Art?" Art is something uncanny. Something new or already known but presented in a fresh new way. I am beginning to understand how I may be able to do my paper for my final grade and do it as a art/lit review. I may take a history period perpective and see what were the societys values at the time, mainstream and see what art is presented in contrast with the mainstream? I wouldl ike to find some "Guerilla Deaf Art" examples of extremist pov. I will stop by and bother Rosen tmw. He's the director of the ASL studies at TC. I think I will either pick 1 artist or a group of Artist working for one cause. I also would like the work to be from a deaf artist raised in a deaf institute prior to the 60s.
Lately I have been feeling torn. I only have till next August to fulfill my film making, acting, web design related activities, studies. I feel like I am under the gun somewhat. I know I will love teaching. I loved working at MSD. Plus I need a steady income and a new place to live next fall amd the joyous occassion to repay my educational loans back. It seems all 'sooo responsible.'
Last fall I was kinda bitchy the first few weeks of Septemeber. I was still riding on the high from shooting PAWs, doing SSP at the Light House for the Blind in Seattle and ofc my birthday which everyone knows I am so corny about birthdays, especially when its mine. And its August. Time to have fun....
But
September is like this stern authority figure, leaning over me in a black dress, a pair glasses at the end of her nose. My biggest concern is the work hours. I have never been a 8 to 4 kind of girl. I think its pure torture. I think it ages people too. If you wake up feeling lousy rather than rested, how can that be a good thing? Nyhoo, I have several major goals before I have to grow up; To finish all 4 of my movies. To have the finished project on DVDs to give to all of my volunteers and to get a website up and running. Then I gotta tuck it aside and work FT, teaching HS kids ASL. 5 days a week, at an ungodly hour. Unless they have a great afterschool porgram, maybe I can work out a 4 long day a week (Mon thru Thurs) and assit the after school programs. I could do it 4 days (10 hrs a day) a week then 5 (8 hrs a day), less torturous. And I am not one of those kinds of people who can work FT, and be involved in many activities during the week. I end up spending the weekend trying to rest, only to wake up early once again on a monday morning, ugh. This business of 5 days of week was created by some evil farmer, I just know it.
Work is hetic today, had 11 jobs in the past 2 hrs so Ive worked up quite a sweat! I am still struggling with Dreamweaver. I will be taking the basic this weekend on saturday, yay! That way I can get it set up properly. I want to use dreamweaver to build a webpage for people to view my short movies and trailers of SDI and PAWS. Plus I was thinking of a small bio on the people involved in the past 2 years.
I need a haircut so badly! My hair is just boring and all I ever do is wear it in a ponytail. I already picked out the style, its just a matter of getting it cut and I plan to add highlights (in my case lowdarks) as I have never been a sun-kissed girl. I will probably get it done in Lancaster during my visit next week.
Last night saw Joe Joy briefly and Szymanski who can swallow now :) Tonight I'm gonna hang with Blondie and Aabel, shoot the breeze. I think I'll go to the show on thurs night for Group Sounds. It should be fun, I hope someone will go with me. I want them to see deafies and ASL.
I've just about given up on trying to secure grants. It seems impossible to find any for individual artist, or ones that I qualify for. Now I am thinking of looking for sponsors, and I am not sure how to go about it. Like for example, I found a list of sponsors in my neighborhood in Washington Heights from a neighborhood newspaper. I wonder if I should borrow a laptop and visit these business with samples of my work and ask if they would be interested in being a sponsor? Of course they would recieve credit and use it as tax write off.
Nothing exciting happening right now, just work, school, editing and web designs. That sums up my life these days.
I need a haircut so badly! My hair is just boring and all I ever do is wear it in a ponytail. I already picked out the style, its just a matter of getting it cut and I plan to add highlights (in my case lowdarks) as I have never been a sun-kissed girl. I will probably get it done in Lancaster during my visit next week.
Last night saw Joe Joy briefly and Szymanski who can swallow now :) Tonight I'm gonna hang with Blondie and Aabel, shoot the breeze. I think I'll go to the show on thurs night for Group Sounds. It should be fun, I hope someone will go with me. I want them to see deafies and ASL.
I've just about given up on trying to secure grants. It seems impossible to find any for individual artist, or ones that I qualify for. Now I am thinking of looking for sponsors, and I am not sure how to go about it. Like for example, I found a list of sponsors in my neighborhood in Washington Heights from a neighborhood newspaper. I wonder if I should borrow a laptop and visit these business with samples of my work and ask if they would be interested in being a sponsor? Of course they would recieve credit and use it as tax write off.
Nothing exciting happening right now, just work, school, editing and web designs. That sums up my life these days.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Deafinitely Seeing Stars
Today was a good day, even tho I am a bit run down and dealt with 2 coughing fits. One during the dreamweaver workshop and the second one during the film gig tonight. I had to suppress this itchy, ticklish spot on the back of my throat. Its a weird dry cough, not a runny nose, snot fest, just an occassional blow and cough. I gotta make sure I have my hall drops tomorrow, they're the only thing that work during the coughing fit, water does jack.
The dreamweaver, ahh I had taken dreamweaver and flash back in 00/01' when I made my ill fated decision to return to Gally for a second degree in TFP. I hated it, I was sick of school then. I dropped out before the semester even ended. I basically dragged my 3.1 gpa to a 2.9 gpa, good going Jenny! I wasnt ready for studies in the field of multimedia. I mean I have never been one people ask computer or software advice from. But film making, actually the correct term, digital video forces me to face software and programs that I've always dreaded. There's so many buttons, choices and things to learn. Slowly but surely I'll get there, I'll learn what I need to know to make my movies into something anyone would want to watch and something that I and the people involved with, will be pleased and proud of their work. Its a joint investment for all involved. There's immense satisfaction that comes with successful and productive collaborations in any medium (arts, sports, intelligence...)
Tmw I take part II of Intermediate Dreamweaver. Yep I've been waved the "basic" requirement. I'm not sure if thats good or bad? Perhaps I'll ask the instructor what she normally covers in the basic workshop to make sure I'm not missing something important?
Last night I was thrilled when I caught an episode of "Law and Order" SVU in an episode called "Painless" and saw two terps (Candy whos is a CODA and Stepahine) from TC in it. Both did a terrific job and it was just neat to reconize friends on tv. I know my friend Alexa will be on the show "Convictions" April 14th, so be sure to catch it as well as Candy who will also be in it :) So mark your calendars!
Speaking of seeing someone I know, I saw Ty's movie "A lot like Love" on saturday night while debating whether to choke down some night qyle or tought it out? Back to the point, it was a very cute movie. I didn't buy the part of Ty being married and the kid being his son. Maybe its cuz I do know him in real life so its not believable? Still it takes a lot of balls to take a chance and try your shot in Hollywood. I was pleased with his signing. And speaking of signing, I was impressed with Ashton Kutcher's signing. He also portrayed a typical CODA or someone with a deaf realtive or friend, where he would sign one word out of the blue while talking verbally. This happened about 2xs throughout the movie, and this is a very common trait I see among hearies who are deaf friendly. I appreciated that small detail and I am thrilled for Ty to make it on Big screen, not once but twice in the same year! Next on my list is the "Family Stone," just gotta wait for it to show up on the movie channel. Ty if youre reading this, good news, your movie didn't make me any sicker, it didn't make me feel better but at least I didn't get sick, ha ha, jk you know it, come on, its just a joke. Seriously Ty, let it go... *sheesh, actors*
Poor Blondie, her hearing aid suffered a tidal wave and was soaked from a glass of water last night. I went ahead and took heroic measures and thoughtlessly offered my hearing aid to borrow for her performance saturday nite. *no need for thundering applause- as the saying goes, a friend in need, is a friend with er indeed*
One cool thing did happen to me, I got invited to a party at a bar downtown on thurs night. The band who's music video I helped out two weeks ago are having a show and invited us to come out to see the premiere of the music video and listen to them play their music live afterwards. If I can get some friends to go and my cough gets better, I would love to go. Neat huh, that they actually took the time to think of us and invited us crew folks out.
The dreamweaver, ahh I had taken dreamweaver and flash back in 00/01' when I made my ill fated decision to return to Gally for a second degree in TFP. I hated it, I was sick of school then. I dropped out before the semester even ended. I basically dragged my 3.1 gpa to a 2.9 gpa, good going Jenny! I wasnt ready for studies in the field of multimedia. I mean I have never been one people ask computer or software advice from. But film making, actually the correct term, digital video forces me to face software and programs that I've always dreaded. There's so many buttons, choices and things to learn. Slowly but surely I'll get there, I'll learn what I need to know to make my movies into something anyone would want to watch and something that I and the people involved with, will be pleased and proud of their work. Its a joint investment for all involved. There's immense satisfaction that comes with successful and productive collaborations in any medium (arts, sports, intelligence...)
Tmw I take part II of Intermediate Dreamweaver. Yep I've been waved the "basic" requirement. I'm not sure if thats good or bad? Perhaps I'll ask the instructor what she normally covers in the basic workshop to make sure I'm not missing something important?
Last night I was thrilled when I caught an episode of "Law and Order" SVU in an episode called "Painless" and saw two terps (Candy whos is a CODA and Stepahine) from TC in it. Both did a terrific job and it was just neat to reconize friends on tv. I know my friend Alexa will be on the show "Convictions" April 14th, so be sure to catch it as well as Candy who will also be in it :) So mark your calendars!
Speaking of seeing someone I know, I saw Ty's movie "A lot like Love" on saturday night while debating whether to choke down some night qyle or tought it out? Back to the point, it was a very cute movie. I didn't buy the part of Ty being married and the kid being his son. Maybe its cuz I do know him in real life so its not believable? Still it takes a lot of balls to take a chance and try your shot in Hollywood. I was pleased with his signing. And speaking of signing, I was impressed with Ashton Kutcher's signing. He also portrayed a typical CODA or someone with a deaf realtive or friend, where he would sign one word out of the blue while talking verbally. This happened about 2xs throughout the movie, and this is a very common trait I see among hearies who are deaf friendly. I appreciated that small detail and I am thrilled for Ty to make it on Big screen, not once but twice in the same year! Next on my list is the "Family Stone," just gotta wait for it to show up on the movie channel. Ty if youre reading this, good news, your movie didn't make me any sicker, it didn't make me feel better but at least I didn't get sick, ha ha, jk you know it, come on, its just a joke. Seriously Ty, let it go... *sheesh, actors*
Poor Blondie, her hearing aid suffered a tidal wave and was soaked from a glass of water last night. I went ahead and took heroic measures and thoughtlessly offered my hearing aid to borrow for her performance saturday nite. *no need for thundering applause- as the saying goes, a friend in need, is a friend with er indeed*
One cool thing did happen to me, I got invited to a party at a bar downtown on thurs night. The band who's music video I helped out two weeks ago are having a show and invited us to come out to see the premiere of the music video and listen to them play their music live afterwards. If I can get some friends to go and my cough gets better, I would love to go. Neat huh, that they actually took the time to think of us and invited us crew folks out.
Sunday, March 05, 2006
Ghost in the Machine
I've been a fan of astronomy all my life. I remember going to the public library, downtown Lancaster and copying from books information on stars and my favorite planet Jupiter. Jupiter's atmosphere is stormy involving numerous weather systems. Very chaotic, and its the largest planet in our solar system. As humans in our current technology abilities, it would take more than one life cycle to make it beyond our solar system, past Pluto/Neptune. It would take thousands, probably millions of generations to make it out of our galaxy, the Milky Way. In the universe we are but a speck in the grand scheme of things.
We've come along way in space exploration so I am not complaining. It hasn't even been a century since we sent a man to space. I am particularly interested in planetary studies and deep space, as well as whether or not the universe is infinite or finite (big bang). Recently there was a program on the M theory which follows on the string theory. The M theory proposes there are 11 dimensions and its really complicated but it reminded me of Plato (I think thats the philosopher who said this) that our universe is like a cell on a larger organism. Its all relative, size and time. I am glad I was born in the time period I was. I wouldn't miss this for the world.
Today 3 people made it for the voice over. Yay, now 7 more to go. Looks like Im gonna have to do them 2 or 3 at a time. All 3 of my actors did well. I was a little panicky before it started because the camera I had, (the same one from the other 2 SDI shoots) its wiring for power, the plug and the input gagdet were wrong :( I had no power source for my camera! Well, I went into McGuyver mode and return to the studio where there were two other cameras set up and took the less frightening looking one. I know Angel the guy who is in charge of the equipment can be uptight and that wasnt the camera I was assigned to. I was honest tho, left him a note explaining why and to be sure all of the wiring was correct? Man, if I ever get a good digital video camera, I am gonna study the manual like its a bible. I've been spoiled because all of my other videographer except one were experience and have their own fancy camera. I am grateful the school loans me the equipment, so if anyone says boo about the quality of my films, tough cookies. Besides, "I've always depended on the kindness of strangers"
Came across this. Try it. Enjoy :)
create your own personalized map of the USA
Yeah I know, I seem to be bias about where I visit. I say, forget the heartland, bible thumping, gay bashing, KKK activist, hunting for fun, methodnia hooked, suburbs and PTA, all white wonder bread part of America. And immerse yourselve in diversity, adversity, challenges and independence.
We've come along way in space exploration so I am not complaining. It hasn't even been a century since we sent a man to space. I am particularly interested in planetary studies and deep space, as well as whether or not the universe is infinite or finite (big bang). Recently there was a program on the M theory which follows on the string theory. The M theory proposes there are 11 dimensions and its really complicated but it reminded me of Plato (I think thats the philosopher who said this) that our universe is like a cell on a larger organism. Its all relative, size and time. I am glad I was born in the time period I was. I wouldn't miss this for the world.
Today 3 people made it for the voice over. Yay, now 7 more to go. Looks like Im gonna have to do them 2 or 3 at a time. All 3 of my actors did well. I was a little panicky before it started because the camera I had, (the same one from the other 2 SDI shoots) its wiring for power, the plug and the input gagdet were wrong :( I had no power source for my camera! Well, I went into McGuyver mode and return to the studio where there were two other cameras set up and took the less frightening looking one. I know Angel the guy who is in charge of the equipment can be uptight and that wasnt the camera I was assigned to. I was honest tho, left him a note explaining why and to be sure all of the wiring was correct? Man, if I ever get a good digital video camera, I am gonna study the manual like its a bible. I've been spoiled because all of my other videographer except one were experience and have their own fancy camera. I am grateful the school loans me the equipment, so if anyone says boo about the quality of my films, tough cookies. Besides, "I've always depended on the kindness of strangers"
Came across this. Try it. Enjoy :)
create your own personalized map of the USA
Yeah I know, I seem to be bias about where I visit. I say, forget the heartland, bible thumping, gay bashing, KKK activist, hunting for fun, methodnia hooked, suburbs and PTA, all white wonder bread part of America. And immerse yourselve in diversity, adversity, challenges and independence.
Goodnight Moon
Took a nap this evening so that I could get the voice over DVD done in time. I am glad most of the actors are easy to lip read. But Leroy, *sigh* I have to guesstimate and hope he remebers what he said on jan 28th shoot. I have everyone except my 2 "laywers," typical isnt it.
There are some shots that well are not visibly close enough for me to read the person's lip. Like when the judge is rendering her verdict. I hope she can wing it tmw? I must say this has force me to face an issue in film making, I've neglected way too long. Sound quality. I've read in some articles that sound quality can make or break the film's success. Then again someone brought it to my attention, I believe Ronnie, who suggested if for some reason the sounds in some areas don't come out right or not synced well enough (voice to mouth movement) that I could twist it so that we as the audience hears the trial as Miss Stone does. I doubt I would do that all the way thru the middle segment but thats the beauty of film. You learn the best ways to conceal your mistakes and then move on.
As for the workshops I took today, here's how I rate em.
This am took "grant writing" workshop where I paid $60 for. And during the 3 hour rambling of some big shot grant writer speaker woman, I nearly nodded off several times. There wasn't any refreshments. Now I believe as I paid $60 that they could shell out for a nice little spread of orange juice, bagels, muffin ya know the routine, some fresh fruits. Get us fired up and ready for a "hands on" wrokshop. But NO, it was this stuffy lecture. I didn't learn anything new or useful. I was dissapointed because I've really struggled making any serious headways in obtaining "finishing" funds.
Then I hung around campus for 2 hrs waiting for the afternoon workshop on dreamweaver (basic) to begin today at 2pm. But no, about 10 of us including 2 terps and I, ended up standing outside a lock door where our workshop was suppose to be. Finally around 2 40 pm we were informed that there had been an email sent to ALL of us last wednesday postponing the class to the following saturday. But NONE of us recieved this email! Gee thanks for wasting my time, the terps time, and 7 or so other student's time on a saturday afternoon. Anyhoo the afternoon workshop gets 2 BIG thumbs down from me.
I have to run to circuit city around 11am to grab more mini DVs. I am really trying to hold on to my reciepts for taxs purposes in 2007. Gonna hit the sack soon. There's a line playing in my head "goodnight moon", what child hood character or lterary works is this from?
There are some shots that well are not visibly close enough for me to read the person's lip. Like when the judge is rendering her verdict. I hope she can wing it tmw? I must say this has force me to face an issue in film making, I've neglected way too long. Sound quality. I've read in some articles that sound quality can make or break the film's success. Then again someone brought it to my attention, I believe Ronnie, who suggested if for some reason the sounds in some areas don't come out right or not synced well enough (voice to mouth movement) that I could twist it so that we as the audience hears the trial as Miss Stone does. I doubt I would do that all the way thru the middle segment but thats the beauty of film. You learn the best ways to conceal your mistakes and then move on.
As for the workshops I took today, here's how I rate em.
This am took "grant writing" workshop where I paid $60 for. And during the 3 hour rambling of some big shot grant writer speaker woman, I nearly nodded off several times. There wasn't any refreshments. Now I believe as I paid $60 that they could shell out for a nice little spread of orange juice, bagels, muffin ya know the routine, some fresh fruits. Get us fired up and ready for a "hands on" wrokshop. But NO, it was this stuffy lecture. I didn't learn anything new or useful. I was dissapointed because I've really struggled making any serious headways in obtaining "finishing" funds.
Then I hung around campus for 2 hrs waiting for the afternoon workshop on dreamweaver (basic) to begin today at 2pm. But no, about 10 of us including 2 terps and I, ended up standing outside a lock door where our workshop was suppose to be. Finally around 2 40 pm we were informed that there had been an email sent to ALL of us last wednesday postponing the class to the following saturday. But NONE of us recieved this email! Gee thanks for wasting my time, the terps time, and 7 or so other student's time on a saturday afternoon. Anyhoo the afternoon workshop gets 2 BIG thumbs down from me.
I have to run to circuit city around 11am to grab more mini DVs. I am really trying to hold on to my reciepts for taxs purposes in 2007. Gonna hit the sack soon. There's a line playing in my head "goodnight moon", what child hood character or lterary works is this from?
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Mighty Green Spinach!
I'm the furtherest thing from a vegan/vegeterian but I do love spinach on pizza and dipping it in tomato sauce, YUM. I just got back from the nearby pizzaeria where I'm on a break between workshops.
Last night Peep and I went to KMFK Gallery where we saw an exhibit on fetish photography. An example would be to go to KnightHawkArt. Most of the photos were related to bondage, death and sex. Funny how death and sex usually go hand in hand. There's another really good photographer name Scott Church, his work can be seen at Scott Church. Peep found out about this show through his blog, he uses Live Journal. We didn't get to meet him unfortunately but we did meet two other photographers both name Roberts. One of them has a studio on 29th street and 8th ave. He invited us to his studio to do photo shoot. I told him I wanted to be a pin up girl, like the kind you see from WWII. I just need to find something to wear and a way to do my hair. I want something classy but fun. Sultry I think is what I am looking for. And Peep has her own ideas. I've invited King and Blondie too. I know both Roberts will be thrilled to have all 4 of us there. Besides safety in numbers. I know having 3 other smart ladies with me, we re gaurenteed to get a good photo set.
Then Peep and I braved the cold, and I do mean friggin cold weather for for? DPHH afterwards :) It was pretty packed, got to see Knob, King, Blondie, Ronnie and her beau Jami, Lewis, Nutter, VA and more. I made a new friend last night name Elizabeth who is also a film maker, she will play one of my mentally ill patients in the 3rd segment of SDI chronicles on April 1st. I hope to collaborate with her on a possible documentary idea in the near future.
Got me a small cold, it started out as a small dry cough and its turning into a full blown cold. Yikes, I have things to do tmw (voice overs) and monday, a film gig. I just hope my cold can make it to tues where I can rest most of the day. I'm gonna get some dayquil later. That stuff is miracle tonic!
Last night Peep and I went to KMFK Gallery where we saw an exhibit on fetish photography. An example would be to go to KnightHawkArt. Most of the photos were related to bondage, death and sex. Funny how death and sex usually go hand in hand. There's another really good photographer name Scott Church, his work can be seen at Scott Church. Peep found out about this show through his blog, he uses Live Journal. We didn't get to meet him unfortunately but we did meet two other photographers both name Roberts. One of them has a studio on 29th street and 8th ave. He invited us to his studio to do photo shoot. I told him I wanted to be a pin up girl, like the kind you see from WWII. I just need to find something to wear and a way to do my hair. I want something classy but fun. Sultry I think is what I am looking for. And Peep has her own ideas. I've invited King and Blondie too. I know both Roberts will be thrilled to have all 4 of us there. Besides safety in numbers. I know having 3 other smart ladies with me, we re gaurenteed to get a good photo set.
Then Peep and I braved the cold, and I do mean friggin cold weather for for? DPHH afterwards :) It was pretty packed, got to see Knob, King, Blondie, Ronnie and her beau Jami, Lewis, Nutter, VA and more. I made a new friend last night name Elizabeth who is also a film maker, she will play one of my mentally ill patients in the 3rd segment of SDI chronicles on April 1st. I hope to collaborate with her on a possible documentary idea in the near future.
Got me a small cold, it started out as a small dry cough and its turning into a full blown cold. Yikes, I have things to do tmw (voice overs) and monday, a film gig. I just hope my cold can make it to tues where I can rest most of the day. I'm gonna get some dayquil later. That stuff is miracle tonic!
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Soon to be Mud Puddles
Its snowing, which always makes the world seem like a wonderland. I love SNOW! I remember about 4 or 5 years ago, Pate was visiting Sorry in DC and I was trapped in my apt by myself during a bad snow storm. Understand the night before the blizzard started I had been with Sorry who told me that my ex fell out of love with me. I was crushed because my ex never told me that and it was only 6 months after the break up of a 6 year relationship. The blizzard had dumped several feet of snow, and my car was more than buried. Pate was soo sweet, he took a cab with Sorry to greenbelt *from DC area* and then the cab driver refuse to go to Laurel where I lived at the time. Pate then begged this one man with a pick up truck at a nearby gas station to drive him and Sorry to my place. He paid the man $40 to drive like 10 miles in the snow. They made it, and I was thrilled beyond words when they arrived, my knights in shinning armor! It meant so much to me and we got pretty shit faced off of southern comfort (Pate and I have a history with Southern Comfort) we listen to all kinds of music, I remember all of us signing along with a band called "Puddle of Mud" (for the longest time I called them Mud Puddles) its the song called She Hates Me.. the chorus goes like this
In a trap
Trap I can't grip
Never thought I'd be the one who'd slip
Then I started to realize
I was living one big lie
She fuckin' hates me
Trust
She fuckin' hates me
La la la love
I tried too hard
And she tore my feelings like I had none
And ripped them away
All three of us have had a long term relationship, Pate with Gina, Sorry with Brooks and Me with Johnson. So we bitched and moan about the injustices that come with love and breakups! Pate and Sorry are some of my closest friends, I known them both since Gally 1995, when they arrived as oralists, not knowing sn ounce of ASL. I saw them both recently for my birthday here in NYC, last august. This summer, I hope Pate and I can visit Sorry at Myrtle Beach, SC. Not to worry Pate, when I become rich and famous *snickers* Ill come to Texas and visit ya, PROMISE!
On a different note,
After talking with Szymanski last night, she helped to calm me down with the whole roommate drama crap. Actually we have a sneaking suspiscion that the papers "served" to me on tuesday night are fake. He likes to make these collage things and print them out. Besides I left after 9pm on Tues, does he really expect me to believe that someone came 2xs after 9pm to "serve" me papers that were not even in an envelope. Or signed by anyone else besides Sam. No contact information or official address. On one of the papers, there's my name in a bright red marker scrawled on the back. I don't think any reputable place would do that. I think he decided to fake me out and granted it work. He keeps trying to get me to sign this home made contract he made and I keep telling him I am waiting for the negiotation meeting on the 14th. Yet I feel like if I don't agree to what he wants then he will start the proceedings for court (even thats questionable and possibly just a bluff).
I am interested in one place in Brooklyn, they have 2 rooms available. The reason being is I need to find a full time job teaching next fall and living in Brooklyn would allow me more opportunities for work in Manhattan as well as Brooklyn. Plus if I am really desperate, I could commute to Long Island by train. The pay better in LI but I hate long commutes to and from work. Ive emailed the guy who shares my cat's name Tom, and see if I can see the apt next tues on my day off. If I really like it, Im gonna have some serious thinking to do. Stay or go? Moving mid to the end of March would be kinda stressful at the same time a relief. What to do, what to do?
In a trap
Trap I can't grip
Never thought I'd be the one who'd slip
Then I started to realize
I was living one big lie
She fuckin' hates me
Trust
She fuckin' hates me
La la la love
I tried too hard
And she tore my feelings like I had none
And ripped them away
All three of us have had a long term relationship, Pate with Gina, Sorry with Brooks and Me with Johnson. So we bitched and moan about the injustices that come with love and breakups! Pate and Sorry are some of my closest friends, I known them both since Gally 1995, when they arrived as oralists, not knowing sn ounce of ASL. I saw them both recently for my birthday here in NYC, last august. This summer, I hope Pate and I can visit Sorry at Myrtle Beach, SC. Not to worry Pate, when I become rich and famous *snickers* Ill come to Texas and visit ya, PROMISE!
On a different note,
After talking with Szymanski last night, she helped to calm me down with the whole roommate drama crap. Actually we have a sneaking suspiscion that the papers "served" to me on tuesday night are fake. He likes to make these collage things and print them out. Besides I left after 9pm on Tues, does he really expect me to believe that someone came 2xs after 9pm to "serve" me papers that were not even in an envelope. Or signed by anyone else besides Sam. No contact information or official address. On one of the papers, there's my name in a bright red marker scrawled on the back. I don't think any reputable place would do that. I think he decided to fake me out and granted it work. He keeps trying to get me to sign this home made contract he made and I keep telling him I am waiting for the negiotation meeting on the 14th. Yet I feel like if I don't agree to what he wants then he will start the proceedings for court (even thats questionable and possibly just a bluff).
I am interested in one place in Brooklyn, they have 2 rooms available. The reason being is I need to find a full time job teaching next fall and living in Brooklyn would allow me more opportunities for work in Manhattan as well as Brooklyn. Plus if I am really desperate, I could commute to Long Island by train. The pay better in LI but I hate long commutes to and from work. Ive emailed the guy who shares my cat's name Tom, and see if I can see the apt next tues on my day off. If I really like it, Im gonna have some serious thinking to do. Stay or go? Moving mid to the end of March would be kinda stressful at the same time a relief. What to do, what to do?
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Been Ridorized!
Got to see Ricky last night. He just returned from LV, the lucky SOB! Ofc he was his usual ridorism mode. King, Blondie, Ricky and I all hung out at a nearby BBQ place and then this another bar where the margaritas were on special. I swear I love NYC, they really give you the booze, my drink was 4/5th alcohol and 1/5th other. Blondie helped me finish it. No repeats of Mongo Cosmos for moi!
Yesterday was a thrilling day, laundry, cleaning, changing the cats box so my owner Tom would be pleased and he was. Didn't get much done in terms of editing. I need to be ready for sunday's voice overs. I have 5 to 6 hearies coming out to watch the footage and lip sync themselves. I hope it comes out okay?
Got served a notice yesterday from my roommate for court proceedings. That threw me off, I thought we were going to a mediator. Well he emailed me saying he wanted that as back up in case the mediation didnt go as planned. Hmm.. I am seriously beginning to wonder if I should just give up and move out at the end of March. I really did want to wait till next fall so me and Szymanski could find 2 bedroom to share but I cannot keep dealing with the same issues over and over again. Its taking a toll on me. So gonna check out craigslist and roommate.com and see what I can find? I will not be cheated out of my $$ and I know he will not be happy with the mediations. I could contact legal aid and find out if I have a real case or do I give up for my sanity? Its a major disappointment that he cannot be a reasonable human being!
Good news is that my FCP arrived, and what exactly does FCP mean to me? Its Final Cut Pro, the best editing software on the market. I will install it next week because too much is happening this week. I am excited because saturday I take both a grant writing workshop in the a.m. and a dreamweaver basics in the afternoon :)
Yesterday was a thrilling day, laundry, cleaning, changing the cats box so my owner Tom would be pleased and he was. Didn't get much done in terms of editing. I need to be ready for sunday's voice overs. I have 5 to 6 hearies coming out to watch the footage and lip sync themselves. I hope it comes out okay?
Got served a notice yesterday from my roommate for court proceedings. That threw me off, I thought we were going to a mediator. Well he emailed me saying he wanted that as back up in case the mediation didnt go as planned. Hmm.. I am seriously beginning to wonder if I should just give up and move out at the end of March. I really did want to wait till next fall so me and Szymanski could find 2 bedroom to share but I cannot keep dealing with the same issues over and over again. Its taking a toll on me. So gonna check out craigslist and roommate.com and see what I can find? I will not be cheated out of my $$ and I know he will not be happy with the mediations. I could contact legal aid and find out if I have a real case or do I give up for my sanity? Its a major disappointment that he cannot be a reasonable human being!
Good news is that my FCP arrived, and what exactly does FCP mean to me? Its Final Cut Pro, the best editing software on the market. I will install it next week because too much is happening this week. I am excited because saturday I take both a grant writing workshop in the a.m. and a dreamweaver basics in the afternoon :)
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