No Love For Blondie

When I cut ties with Blondie almost 5 years ago come this fall. I did it out of self preservation. There were many times when I would be driving home and wanting to stop and see Eddie but because of Blondie I didn't. I regret that a lot now. 

Because Eddie died suddenly from a heart attack 💔. And it was like losing family to me! I tried to repair things with Blondie as we had had a 20 year friendship up till the time my Mom died.

She had already been acting shady for months and both my Mom and Baba stated she doesn't know how to be a friend and they were right. I was blind all these years I guess especially the few years up to when I cut her off from my life she had been a crappy friend. Stating I only got promoted to FT because I kissed ass etc etc. Smh no stupid,  I actually care about the program and my students and my teachers and so on. I was always happy for her on her milestones such as getting married, buying a house, finishing grad school with me. Albeit with my,  Eddie's, Baba's and Mom's help without us she never would have finished her thesis. She pretty much plagiarized her work so I would go and fix it for her a lot etc.. 

And she was kind of becoming an alcoholic. I wonder if she's sober now but highly unlikely. And man is she a nasty spiteful person when she's drunk! But I still loved and cared about her for many years. 

So when Eddie's death happened I tried to repair things and for a while we were talking but then the Loser got her manipulative claws on Blondie and then it was no communication at all!

I finally just told her why I cut her off and it felt good to get it off my chest years later. The fucked up part was when she accused me of taking advantage of her grief. WTF? in no way was I taking advantage of anything and I didn't know how to proceed because she just stopped the lines of communication with me so shrugs. Sigh they say the road to hell is paved with good intentions which is very true. I tried to step up knowing what it is like to lose someone you love suddenly but somehow I'm the bad guy. It gets old being the scapegoat instead of Blondie and the Loser owing up to their own mistakes 

I am not perfect and I have no problem apologizing and moving forward but other people rather hold a grudge so be it!

Dear Loser Part 2

Dear a$$hole crazy lady! Quit backstabbing me! You invited your boyfriend Jeff whom I never met until the summer I visited you in Detroit. You offered to get smokes and I said at the time it wasn't necessary but YOU INSISTED like you always do and then turn around and expect to be reciprocated when in fact I didn't need it and I had no way of contacting Jeff, YOU DID.  You introduced me and then goaded me into saying that he was cute. And then twisted it into some insane story! I never wanted Jeff and the only thing I was EVER GUILTY OF was asking him to help you as the mother of his child and you both at the time seem to be getting along!

Fast forward a year or two later and we made plans to go to NYC and SC/NC. I went through a lot of trouble to find places to sleep and even paid for an Airbnb that you never used! You invited Jeff on to our plans. I even said that I would adjust if that's something YOU WANTED? and evidently you did! That was a huge turn off and I didn't want to be trapped in a car with you, Jeff and your son at that time! Too stressful! 

After that ended, you are at me about money and how much you spent! Hello no one told you to take a trip you couldn't afford! I even sent you money and wrote a reference letter for you to go back to school and what thanks I get, you making me out to be the bad guy! Guess what hun no one can save you but yourself! I told you repeatedly to call the police if you felt in danger. But you are too busy mooching off of your family and friends. You even told me in SC you wouldn't mind having another baby with Jeff as you guys make cute babies. Your words not mine!

I was in NYC how the hell was I going to save you? If you really feared for your life as you say you do then call the police! 

But enough is enough, move the fuck on. Stop hating me as it only serves you not me. I could care less what you think of me you fucking leech and user!