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I saw this off of Facebook and had to try it, aren't they hilarious??? I sure hope Jack doesn't kill me when he see what I've done to his photo, well not me but er well you know what I mean :)

I decided to upload a different one for my profile for this website, cute right? Now go snap a photo of yourself and have fun. Nancy (my aunt), I know you're dying to do this!!!

Being visited by the Ghost of "What Ifs"

Sorry for not blogging more lately, I've
been dealing with my own bs. Perhaps
explained in a future blog post but for
now I'm gonna stick with my title of
this post;

Guess what happened to me the other
day through the power of Facebook?
My ex's girlfriend or maybe his wife now
who I refer to as the "Whore" all this time,
(a term Chanda introduced to me back in
the day when she spoke of her father's
new wife.) Anyways the whore
contacted me to request we be
"friends." There was no personal msg
address to me. Only a family photo
of her, my ex *who got FAT btw,
karamas a bitch aint it?*, and
their 3 kids. (The girl looks adorable).
I was so surprised and weirded out by
this because she and I never knew each
other. That is until my ex had the
brillant idea of bringing HER to my
birthday party a little over a year
after we had broken up. Let me tell
you, that incident still ignites me when
I think about it. It was such a slap
in the face, after being with my ex
for over 6 years. He showed up at
an event for me and Blondie and all
of our friends with her who he had
been dating shortly and got knocked
up within a month of dating, hence
her nickname the whore ;}

So of course I was telling Baba last night,
after I arrived to PA, about the whore
contacting me and how ridicolous it all
was! Baba ofc wanted to see their
photo (which I showed her earlier
today.) She added its normal to
experience the "what ifs" like what
if my life had gone a different way...
What would my life be now? Truly,
I can't imagine, because by the time
we had broken up, I had almost no self
esteem. I had spent such a long time trying
to make something work that wasn't
working despite my feelings for him.
I wanted to please him so he would be
happy, but he never was. You see, I
used to believed loves conquers all
but now I know better. As Baba said
way back then "Love doesn't put
food on the table." While love is
important, its only 1 part of a loving
relationship and we didn't have all
the parts.

Now, when I examine my life since
my ex, there's no doubt in my mind it
was for the best. Its hard for me to
imagine what my life wouldve been
like if we hadn't broken up. But Baba
did remind me of what I had done since
which was go to grad school.

And since then I've mulled over that and
reflected on my life and what I've
done for the past 6 years;

-I was an assistant basketball coach for
2 years at MSD

-ive made over 10-15 films (some are
not finished)

-ive moved to NYC and lived here for
the past 4 years now :]

-ive taught at an University and will
continue so. (Major perk, my
students address me as prof. ...
Which is always good for my ego)
-ive gone from a size 10 to an 8,
had Lasik done for 20/40 vision,
chest reduction from DD to Cs,
veneers and I'm happier for it.
I don't care if anyone thinks I'm
superficial for it. Two things about
me, I spent most of my youth feeling
unattractive or self concious and
decided I wanted to feel good about
myself for the remainder of my life
and I do. 2ndly I'm VAIN! I'm
not drop dead gorgeous, but I'm
pretty please with my reflection in the
mirror. Most of the time, I feel cute.

-i attended WFD conference in Montreal,
volunteered for Deaf Way II

-ive become an active member in the
Deaf-blind community thanks to
Bernice and Ronnie

-ive been on major tv sets such as
Law and Order as an extra,
and ASL advisor for All My Children...

So you know what? I'm not gonna focus
on the fact I haven't started a family
and do focus on the things I want to
do with my future. Cuz if these past 6 years
are any indication for my future, then
things are looking pretty good!

I'm still here :)

Sorry I haven't written in quite a while. Been busy just living. Have a bunch of photos to post from this month August.

The first set of photos are from Friday Aug 1st. My DB (deaf-blind) friend Martin asked me to SSP (service support provider) for him and his friend Mussie visiting from San Fransisco California that day. He wanted to show Mussie the city and booked us reservations with cirlce line cruise to take a 2 hr tour around Manhattan. So we met up that day at 2pm and took the bus across town to go to Pier 83 (off of 42nd st). Once we arrived, we met up with two more of Martin's friends, a couple name Liz and Randy and they both have Usher Syndrome. Liz is a born and raised New Yorker. Randy is from Alabama. They've been dating for 2 years now and make the cutest couple I've met in a long time. They both have some limited vision and use canes. They did not need me to lead them but help facilitate communication between themselves and the coordinator at the circle line cruise. Liz told all of us she wanted to do the 3 hour boat tour not the 2 hour one. Which was kinda good and kinda bad. Kinda good because I didn't think we would be able to board the 3:30pm 2 hour cruise in time since the bus took a long time crossing from east to west on 42nd st. The 3 hour cruise departs at 4 30pm but would be a heck of a lot longer ride. I decided to let majority rules and voila we were booked for the 4:30pm 3 hour cruise. They also gave us 1/2 price discounts. The woman (who's name escapes me) was a sweetheart and let us cool off in the conference room of their main office and even brought us cups of water.

Here's a picture of Liz and Randy chilling and killing some time till we board.

The coordinator also arranged for the ship crew to let us board 1st too, well technically not 1st. It was weird when we boarded the ship it was all empty except for the top deck, stern there were 2 redneck ladies already on board waiting. I could see over the side of the boat to the boarding dock a LONG line of people waiting and wondered how they felt about the 2 woman who boarded on 1st. I mean in my case, there was no confusion, deaf-blind go first, period.

Here we are waiting for the others to board, Martin and Liz chatting about the cruise tour itself.

It was a BEAUTIFUL day as you can see, nice fluffy clouds!

We sat in the back (stern) part of the boat, where there was no roofing. Yep we were at the mercy of the sun goddess, oh ye please do not burn thee! (and luckily I wasn't!)

And away we go, here's a small sail boat, the horizon is NJ (got it Gabriel?)

We neared Ellis Island (the closest I've ever been) and due to the sun shinning and the sunlight direction, this was the only good shot I snapped of Lady Liberty, but you betcha my heart swelled some to see her with my own 2 eyes. What was odd to me about Lady Liberty is she isn't really very tall. Living in the heart of NY, I'm surrounded by tall buildings all day long and it was a surprise when we neared to see how short she really is. I was told she's the "tallest statue" in the world. Every time you see her in any Hollywood "end of the world" movies, they make her out to be much bigger than she really is.

Here's a picture of Martin & Mussie (Jack can you name which bridge is behind them?)

Here's me, while it was HOT, it was breezy too!

Here's the famous Domino Sugar Refinery Building in Brooklyn.

Here's the famouse Long Island City Pepsi Cola sign from their bottling plant.

A shot of the Chrysler Building, which I always confuse with the Empire State Building, but the top of both buildings are DIFFerent despite my inability to remember what they are ;-)

A shot of what I think might be the UN building but I can't be sure. Just a cool-ass looking building if you ask me, deem worthy of snapping a picture of.

This I believe is a shot of Roosevelt Island but I can't be sure...

I have no idea what this old structure is (Jack do you know?) It was taken on the east side, facing Queens or NJ I think?

FYI when you're cruising along the east side River you past under a thousand and 1 bridges. Seriously, Manhattan has a major love affair of bridges. I can't begin to identify below which bridge is what? (I leave that up to Jack to post under the comment section if he thinks he can identify them all??? I dare you *grins*)



This was one of the last photos I snapped on the tour, a shot from the west side I think its a view of the west end highway (am I correct Jack?)

All in all, it was a good experience. But too LONG for me. 2 hours would've been enough. By the time it ended, I couldn't wait to get off the ship. I felt cooped up and over heated by the sun. We all went to a dinner on 23rd and 9th ave. All in all, it was a wonderful day, that night we went to DPHH where I snapped photos there too. You can view those photos here.

My next post will have photos from my birthday party 2 weeks ago. It was one of the BEST birthdays I've had in quite some time.

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