Friday, November 22, 2013

House of cards

Getting back to my life as I should. Closing the door on an old crutch no matter how many times he tries to keep it open its going to stay closed. I have to go back to compartmentalizing my concerns and fears. I really made strides in the past 2 years so to have that recent setback a few weeks ago was a real blow to my center.

Meanwhile the one guy who seems promising but I suspect may not be entirely honest with me sent me a cute I LIKE YOU using ASL manual alphabet today via email. But my trust in men is nada these days. They all seem like cheaters.

Last night I watched a really good TEDTalks with Amy Webb who wrote a book about cracking the online dating code. Very informative. I really like the TEDTalks series.

But hey it's Friday night. Shabbat Shalom! I'm riding the 4 train downtown to Union Square to watch the movie The Hunger Games: Catching Fire with my friend Lisa Simpson! :-)

Here I go again on my own....

*hums 1987 White Snakes song* ...wow I just looked up the lyrics. LAME! It sounded cool when I would watch the video play on Mtv after school as a teenie booper/teenager. Before I ever really entered the Deaf world and have a chance to see closed captioned tv. Hard to believe I have spent more time in the Deaf world (within the hearing world) now than I have in the hearing world alone. I have always been way happier since.

Anyways this post is about online dating, which has been interesting so far

-met one guy via online who was a royal jerk ugh. Lesson learn do not share text number. You might just get some pervy 'accidental' photos. Just a real pig!

-another guy has been nice but I don't think he's being honest so probably going to shut that down too

-a lot of guys contact me just to tell me how pretty they think I am.

-Some will write me lame stuff like 'hi, how's your week so far?' really? That's your opening line?
Being the nice person I tend to reply but today I realize I must stop replying to most of the messages. This is a good exercise because I am basically honing my filtering skills on what I am looking for in a man.

Then in real life I also have a few guys who I have met in person and thought was cute who still  text me occasional 'Hey....' texts which I find weird along with 'babe, hun, dear...' they don't know me that well. Why would they even address me that way?

I have been trying to stay away from artists, musicians, or anyone in the entertainment industry. I am the artistic one, the guy's gotta have his own thing and I work for a living and do my art when I can. I don't want to be supporting any man in the near future who also happens to be an artist.  No thank you. I also don't want any 'entrepreneurs' or CEOs of their own companies.  I want a man who goes to work and wants to enjoy his time off with me and some mutual activities we both enjoy. I want to be able to share the cost of living, not worry so much about money and travel a little. I just can't be with someone who is not self sustaining or employed steadily and reasonably compensated for their employment choice.

One thing about online dating is I also am leery of wasting time with guys who seek an online illusion for their ego fulfillment. No thank you, I have enough people in my life who want my attention. I don't need to waste it on someone who lives nearby but too chicken shit to meet up with me in real life or isn't really being honest with me. I just can't stand dishonesty these days!

So we will see how things go over the next few weeks. I am ready to get out there and DATE. And lucky for me I actually kind of have the schedule that will allow me to do so :]

Monday, November 18, 2013