Chocolate chip scones

are not low-calorie snacks...I brought one this morning along with some peppermint tea thinking scones would be relatively low in calories, ha ha, they're not. I used 10 pts on that scone (I only have 24-25 pts a day on weight watchers) and I am not too happy about that. Lesson learned, just because YOU think something is low calorie, doesn't mean it is. Its better to check beforehand if you're not sure. I mean there was no reason for me to think a scone would be low calories other than the fact I never eat scones. And I assumed because I dont eat it hardly ever it must be low calories. I know, doesn't make sense. But granted it was tasty and I snacked on it all day.

Well I think I am PAH seeing some results with my diet. For example today when I put on my work pants (size 10) they were not tight like before. I can actually relax and not suck in my gut in order to move around in them. Major improvement compared to the beginning of the month. What's even more is aunt flo is in town and I am bloated big time so I bet my pants would feel even loser in a week when my period ends, see see.

I did last Saturday night relasped on my diet to chocolate candy bars (they were the small ones used to give out on Halloween) but dangerous because you trick yourself into thinking, gee these are small, a few won't hurt. Yeah right.

Losing weight this time is a very slow process. I am not used to this because in my 20s I could just diet for like a week or 2 and viola, skinny again. Not this time, every lb is a major battle and I am still at war 3 1/2 weeks later.

In other news, the apt Jack and I wanted on Roosevelt Island didn't pan out much to our disappointment. We are now searching the east side to see what bargains we can get? Jack is desperate to get out of the neighborhood we live in now. The crime is increasing, noise level and loitering too. He is fed up with where we live and the people who live there. And while it doesn't bother me the way it does him, it doesn't make his suffering any less valid. I know how it feels to be "stuck" in a situation in which you have limited control over. I want to see Jack happier in which would in turn make US happier too.

Work is good, my lesson plans are coming along. Graded students videos yesterday, still need to post grades today or by this weekend. As I joked to my co-worker, I don't have to hurry to return grades back to my students. They have deadlines, not me ;P

Today I went to JCPenny which just opened on 33rd st and 6th ave. They have a great set up and I was able to find 2 work pants, 4 nice tops and a dress all for under $140! I am happy because I really didn't have enough work clothes because of my weight gain. The pants I picked out look smashing and yes they are size 10s. I am okay with that, because they fit and look good. It was nice to be able to buy clothes in a retail establishment, most of the time I buy only thrift clothes but today I wanted brand new threads. Sometimes that's just what you gotta do, splurge.

Hearing aid hazards

Ugh, I got conked good in my right ear
by the sliding train door, ugh! And it
hurt because my hearing aid was in and
got slammed into my ear canal. Owieeee!

Courteousy of Lexington School for the Deaf

Moving on up....

Er rather down...to the east side! We're
finally got a piece of the pie. (Humming
the Jefferson theme song). Well it looks
like Jack and I are headed downtown or
to Roosevelt Island. Our apt is no longer
viable for us to live in. Apparently
someone moved in or our landlord has
stop tending the apt building that we
have many new roommates. Call em Bob,
Will or Mike but they're roaches! Yes
COCK-roaches! 1-2 inches in length and
JUST DIGUSTING! It all started two nites ago
when I was relaxing and watching some tv
when I saw something stir out of the
corner of my eye. A f*cking FLYING cockroach.
Ohmigod, I was banging on the livingroom
wall, yelling "Jack! Jack! Jack! Come HERE!"
I wasn't gonna let that fooker out of my
line of sight for fear we never find it again :(
Immediately he got the most hazardous bug
spray that we own and sprayed away. Ugh
yesterday at work he bombed the whole apt
and reported via gmail messenger that at
least 6 more COCKroaches crawled to their
deaths along with like 20 mini ones. Oh my
god I can't begin to tell you how creeped out
we are. We have NEVER had a problem like
this before. We keep our apt CLEAN. Dishes
are washed regularly, trash taken out daily,
etc, etc..there's just no way they came from us!

What's worst and it gets worst, Jack
decided last night before we went
to bed to wash the blankets and
we changed the bed sheets to clean ones
from an unopen package that I brought
last summer. So because I have to leave the
apt at 6am, I went to bed and Jack stayed up
to do the wash. Around 2am, he finally
came to bed and I vaguely remember him
putting the comforter on me and snuggling
next to me. When the next instant he had
leapt and I mean physically jumped 3 feet
into the air, sprung over me (the bed is
against the wall and I was sleeping on the
outter edge) and yanked me awake. In my
slumber I tried to gather myself in an up-
right position and Jack had turned on the
lights pointing to the bed, frantic and I
groggily tried to focus on his lips to read
what he was trying to say. Apparently there
was a roach in bed with us! And sure
enough that little fooker ambled out.
*shudders* Jack got the mini dustbuster
and sucked that fooker right up.
He then ordered me to sleep in the LR on
the newly washed couch cover while
he tore the bedroom apart spraying and
gathered almost every piece of clothing we
own, clean or dirty to put in his car and
tonight we will go to the laundry mat to
wash clothes! Finally around 3am the
bedroom was declared "safe" again. We
both turned on EVERY light we have in
the apt to keep those shitters away from
us! Jack will be re-bombing the apt again.
I don't think I can ever cook there again!
I don't think I can get rid of the heebie-
jeebies and the need to check every
little itch I feel for those fookers. This is
so gross but I asked Jack how did he know
there was one in the bed? And he replied
(if your gross factor is low, do not read)
He felt it on his head! Oh man does that
mean that disgusting creature was in bed
with me?!

I told Jack last night NONE of our furniture
(Its not like we have a lot) will come with
us except the new bed! And that bed will
have to be bombed like 5xs before it gets
moved to wherever we move to! Our goal
is to move out of our dump of an apt by
Nov 1st. We just can't live like this.

Right now Jack is my hero! He's the one
dealing with this while I am working 3
jobs at 4 different campuses. Lets
hope todays round of bombs does the
trick?!

NY MTA can byte me...

*snarls* this transportation giant, known as
the MTA has a disgruntled consumer now!
1st the metro-north last week to Dobbs Ferry
was inaccurately posted on the MTA website
about the time it left 125th station causing me
to miss my 2nd night of classes for my new job.
Now this morning the NJ transit cancelled my
741am train causing me to miss my 1st
class! (I teach 2 classes back to back there).
Grr by the time I arrive on the
next train there will only be 15 mins left!
The good news is I won't miss my 2nd class....

Argh I've had a LOT of bad luck this fall with
my classes. 1st I missed the VERY 1st day of
classes in NJ due to scheduling error with the
dept. Then last week I missed my class in
Dobbs Ferry bc the website put down the
wrong time. And now today the train broke
down due to mechanical problems...it makes
me feel like a lousy teacher. That im not
reliable which isn't at all like me! As long
as I am NOT dying I always work, ALWAYS!

Well at least I was able to get a "letter of
delay" issued by the Nj transit to give to
my boss... I don't want any ramifications
because of this f*ck-up.

In other news, its been 2 weeks now since
I've started dieting. Jack says he's notice
I've lost a little weight but it doesn't feel
like it to me. But nonetheless I am
determined to keep trying. I really don't want
to buy all new work clothes. I don't care if
I look "healthy" and blah blah blah. Im vain
and it means a lot to me to stay a size 8 a
little longer...

This weekend I was a lazy bum, just slept a
lot due to another UTI :( figured a lot of rest
and fluids is the ONLY way to go. I sure
hope the UTI/Kidney infections do not be-
come a chronic problem. And I totally missed
out on Rosh Hashannah (sp?)! Which I was
suppose to terp for my friend Martin but
between him spraining his ankle and my
UTI I had to cancel.

I do however have something to look forward
to later this week which is my friend Karen
will be in town visiting, yay! She recently
got married and will have her wedding next
month (they got married I believe in city hall
or somewhere like that suddenly last month)
but want the formal wedding in Oct. Plus she's
preggars! I can't wait to see if she's showing
yet? I am so happy for her bc less than a year
ago she was miserable and depressed. Its
amazing to see how much her life has changed
in the past 6 months!

Anyhoo not much else is new. Just settling
into a routine of working my butt off and
being with Jack :}

"A balance diet is a cookie in each hand"

So its been almost a week and a half since I started my diet. So far so good. I only went over my WW points 2xs but not enough to actually gain any weight so I am still pleased with my progress. Ironically last night I had some junk food and it actually didn't feel good. My body has been enjoying a lot more fruits, veggies and unprocessed food and I can feel the difference! Do I look any different? Nope, I keep meaning to weigh myself so I can keep track but I keep forgetting because I have to use my Wii fitboard to do so.

My life has really picked up. Working 3 jobs at 4 different campuses is actually pretty cool. For someone like me with ADD, I sure won't get bored! Originally I was dreading teaching an almost 3 hour class but today it went by so quickly that I didn't mind. I actually wonder if by the end of the semester I would prefer a 3 hour class 1x a week or 1.5 hour classes 2xs a week? I am just so ready to make some money and pay bills!

Last weekend Jack and I used my free movie tickets (I won them last spring in a raffle) for AMC movie theater chain. We opted to see District 9, it was kind of depressing but still a good story. A character Wilkus (the actor could easily play a young version of Hitler) starts off as a weakling geek type and unravels into an unlikely hero. Basically the story is a million plus aliens arrive to Earth with no where to go so they end up in a ghetto camp in South Africa. The humans end up resenting the Aliens, calling them "Prawns" because they look like bottom feeders. And these aliens for some reason LOVE cat food!!! So the South African government decides to relocate these aliens elsewhere and thats when trouble begins for Wilkus. I don't want to give away the story but if you ever wondered how we hew-mans would react to alien presence in a realistic way, this is the movie for you! I am keeping my fingers crossed for a District 10 sequel!

What's even funnier is Jack posted a copy of this on our apartment window so when people walk by, they gawk at it. Jack hates our neighborhood and basically him posting it is an inside joke about what he thinks of the people around us. I am sure some folks think we favor animals over hew-mans which in a way I do. I mean whenever I donate to charity or causes/organization I ALWAYS focus on animals and the environment, not the hew-mans. I figured the hew-mans have one another but who will speak up for those who can't speak for themselves such as animals and plant life?

Waistline out of control

Well Jack and I are just done with our poor
eating habits. Sure some of its not our fault.
Limited nearby healthy restaurants, stress,
etc., etc.. But we are now in diet mode which
= bitchy mode! On Saturday, Sunday I felt like
I was starving! Whenever I 1st start a diet, I
can't stop thinking about food. Its this insatiable
cravings to EAT. Not because im actually
hungry but because I love to eat, I love food,
I love the taste, texture, smells...yesterday
was a lot better, I wasn't as hungry and I
think my body knows to buckle up and deal
with this diet!

No im not horribly overweight, I've got about
15lbs to loose to fit back into my size 8
comfortably and to feel better about myself
all around. Being a size 10 is not a crime but
I feel like its a slippery slope to a size 12.

So I've gone back to weight watchers. The
point system is the ONLY way for me. Sure
its just limiting your calorie intakes but
somehow POINTS the word psychologically
is more motivating then the word CALORIES!

I also like how more and more restaurants &
fast food joints are posting their calorie
contents. Like today im at Penn Station
McDonalds for a diet coke and 1 hashbrown
which is 150 calories or 3 points. My daily
goal is 20-25 pts. So far I've hit 25 for the
past 2 days. Thank goodness for carrots,
sliced cheese and yogurt as well as pop
corn. If I didn't already have a list of "diet"
snacks I really be struggling. And bananas
have been a huge hit with both me and Jack.

Bottom line is this extra weight has to go!
As Jack mentioned to me, its better we get
it under control now before the holiday hits!