impending end of summer vacation and
decided to list the things I will miss!
I will miss ALL of my family!
I will miss cable tv.
I will miss eating at good restaurants or having access to really
mouthwatering fruits and veggies!
I will miss my cat Tom.
I will miss the bed I sleep on at Baba's, so comfortable!
I will miss eating well.
I will miss skipbo card game that Mom & I play
I will miss sleeping in daily and not having to feel bad about it.
I will miss watching historical docu-dramas with Baba and Jack such as
John Adams.
I will miss talking Star Trek stuff with Uncle David and seeing Jack
crack him up!
I will miss seeing Jack so happy and relax. He's so guarded in the city
:(
I will miss living with Baba as she's my rock.
I will miss seeing Aunt Nancy's new kitten, Kisa who is a doll!
When I return to NYC full time next week
I will have to say goodbye to my hometown,
and most sadly, my family. I have been
sort of sad today knowing that my days of
complete relaxation and lounging around
are fewer and fewer. I love living at Baba's
not only is her home beautiful, but its
warm and comfortable.
The good news is I plan to return here
fulltime either this winter or more likely
next summer. The cost of living in NYC
just keep getting higher and higher.
And I feel like if I can't live in Manhattan
then the next best place would be in PA!
My money/income would go so much
further. It would also mean giving up my
life in NYC which will also be very hard to
do. I love using public transportation!
I love attending Town & Village Synagogue
with ASL terped services, or DINGO
sponsored by one of the NYC Deaf clubs.
I have never grown tired of NYC but I do
miss having space! Most of my
recreational stuff such as books are in
storage! For what Jack & I pay now to
live in a shoebox there, we can get a 3
bedroom apt, 2.5 bath here! I could
actually have guests visit me! Or
host a dinner party, and have a real
kitchen!
Also having my family around has meant
the world to me. Mom and I hang out, and
she's one of the few people who make me
laugh! Aunt Nancy is my thrift store
buddy! Jack and Uncle Robbie work on
his classic car (Alpine Sunbeam). Plus Rob
& I compare notes on teaching :-]
Jack and I enjoy Baba's company immensely!
I like having dinner with David on Weds at
Baba's. I like seeing my Aunt Maria and
getting to know her as a person. Plus Paula my
childhood friend has greeted me with open
arms and is always fingerspelling or asking
me to teach her new signs. She deAfinitely will
keep me busy. So while I am sad right now I
must remind myself its only temporarily!
And I should enjoy the time I have left in the
Big Apple while I can.
I guess anyone who knows me knows
I hate goodbyes, even if its only for a
few days. When I was a kid I used to
cry/sob whenever Uncle Robbie would go
back to Boston. I even cried when Blondie
went back to NYC last June, despite knowing
I see her the following week. Sometimes it
sucks to be so emotional because I truly
feel it, the sadness and sense of loss. I
asked my therapist last spring if I was
normal to be emotional as I am and
she said YES. That I didn't need help
controlling it. People have various
degrees of it, mine just happens to be
more than some others. And while it was
nice to have affirmation that being emotional
is ok, it still feels like a burden or something
beyond my control and no one likes feeling
out of control! I have always admired people
who can remain calm and collected. Ever so
cool! Unfortunately, I have never been
one of them. When I am sad you know it.
When I am mad you know it. When I am
happy you know it. What you see is what you get.
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