Can't be bothered, too much effort

I found a good article that talks about grief and food 

Food as Fuel for Self Care and Healing - Grief In Common

https://www.griefincommon.com/blog/food-as-fuel-for-self-care-and-healing/

The tiredness is head on. I rather not eat than have to try to cook. I barely keep up with the dishes these days.

I hate grief, it messes with my ability to function at the level I want to. I am hard on myself I keep being told this. But I don't know any other way....