Here's my "6 pts" lunch. I have to have dip
when it comes to raw carrots, otherwise I
won't touch em but it was pretty satisfying
lunch
Yesterday for lunch I had a small piece of
Salmon and crackers & cheese. (10 pts total)
But about 1pm my head started to throb
and by 3ish I felt nasueauos! The headache
continued to intensify so I stopped by Tasti
D-lite (a dairy based frozen dessert-not
yougurt or ice cream for a peanut butter frozen
dessert in a small cup). I thought maybe I
experiencing "sugar" withdrawal but
after a few bites and I knew it didn't matter.
I ended up freezing most of the uneatened portion.
After I got home, I paid bills online, yippee
and some other needed paper work. By
dinner time there was no reprieve from
the headache from hell! I walked over to
Drug Reade *yeah yeah Duanne, Drugs,
whatever...* to buy some BC powder
aspirin. Still no improvement. I brought a
box of "Deluxe" mac & cheese. Thinking
maybe some carbs is what I needed, nada
still agonizing headache! (14 pts for mac &
cheese dinner)
Finally around 8 or 9pm it ended... I was
glad too. I ended up eating Black Berries
with reddiwhip (2 tablespoon = 15 cal)
and I LOVE whip cream. Esp if its in choc
flavor. Ill just spray a bowl's worth,
its like eating mousse without the
guilt!
So yeah yesterday I was probably closer
to 30 pts but I don't care. Rome wasn't
built in a day.
This a.m. I had to have a McDonalds hash
brown (140 calories=3 pts), 1 banana (2pts)
pistachios (3pts), a few choc covered
raisins (2 pts) for 10 pts so far. And I
feel full! When I was eating my hash brown
I really tried to savor each bite. I realize
I don't do that enough so that when I do
eat food that are not "healthy" I'm eating
blindly, if I'm going to eat unhealthy food
in small quanities I better savor the bites!
Make it worth the points!
Well didn't get much sleep last nite, had a
bout of insonmia but that's ok bc once I'm
done teaching in NJ, I'm coming home 2 nap
b4 Rusty's class 2nite. I'm suppose to
present a topic for class too. Argh, I don't
like my current topic, will do a different
one instead, such as FREE resources for
teachers or teacher's consumer benefits
instead of what ASL games are beneficial
to 2nd language acquisition.
I haven't been able to locate my little weight watcher booklet with a directory of food by their points so I decided to google online and there's one good site you can look up at free WW points list
The shirts are from a nearby thrift store,
too bad the puzzle shirt was too BIG
that I could house a family under it. And
if the Battle Star Galatica didn't have an
oil stain on it, it wouldve been mine!
The horse/animal figure was taken somewhere
downtown, but for the life of me, I don't remember where :(
The bicycle one was from Chinatown, in
memory of a cyclist who had been killed
at that spot.
The plate was one that I painted 1 afternoon
@ Eddies with the girls. Ofc it has the Star
Trek Logo, duh!
And Uncle Sam!
Lastly Snickers Candy "Charged" in which
I charge them for a terrible taste! Shame
on you Snickers!
For breakfast I've had 1 red apple, 1.5 cups
of cheerios, raspberry-lime seltzer water
and 11 doritos Fiery Habanero chips for a
total of 350 calories or 7 weight watchers
points. My goal is to eat no more than 20-25
pts a day (that's roughly 2000-2500 calories).
The next few days are gonna be
rough because as anyone who's ever diet
before, knows all you can think about is your
next meal. Already I'm planning on tuna
sandwich for lunch, with mango/peach
apple sauce and 11 more fiery habanero
dorito chips. Hey, at least I'm honest
about my thought process when it comes
to dieting.
Plus May is right around the
corner which means getting out my summer
clothes and doing the thigh jiggle dance.
Any woman knows exactly what I mean.
Its when you put on a pair of shorts or
knee skirt and check yourself out in a full
length mirror for jiggling when walking,
drooping knees and the all dreaded celluite
aka cottage cheese factory on the back
of your legs. Its not pretty and this yearly
event is accompany with a box of tissues,
pulling out every DVD/VHS or book you own
on exercising and if you have a bf or gf,
depends which team you're playing for,
having them reassure you, its not as bad
as you think it is. And often they will
kiss the problem area to prove their point,
while you blow your nose and wipe away the
tears over your hated thighs. Knowing they're
lying but you love them for trying to
convince you, you're more than your thighs!
Anyways, I got hooked on weight watchers
through my Grandmother back in 1998 or so
when I was up to a 155 lbs, a size 10/12.
Back then I was on the depro vera shots for
birth control. Its the kind of birth control
shot that you get every 3 months and
you don't get a period. While this was a
great bc, no periods! But it made me
always hungry! The reason why you don't
get a period on this type of birth control
is because it fools your body into thinking
your preggars. Well my body for 2 years
thought I was preggars and I ate like one.
That's why I got to the 155 lb mark.
But after 1 summer of weight watchers
and swimming every day. I lost the excess
weight and went to a nice even size 10.
Since moving to NYC I've gone down 1 dress
size from a 10 to an 8 and my weight has been
usually 132-140, right now its at 145, a big no
no for me. Only my size 10 clothes are
fitting me right now and its depressing for
me to put on shirts or pants that are just a
tad bit tighter than I can stand.
Anyhoo if during the next few days I write
odes to food and snap pictures of food I
wish to be stuffing into my piehole, you'll
know why ;-)
The on Tues afternoon after I saw Mom for the 2nd time, Tom was much
more approachable. He rubbed up against my legs as we played cards.
Actually Tom rubbed up against the table legs, my Mom's legs, the walls
and corners. Pretty much everything that crossed his path. He always
came right back when I called him. I am happy he is well and happy. But
it makes me sad too because I miss him a lot. We'll see how Tom's date
of return unfolds in the next month or two.
Baba brought a FIT Honda. Darling car for a phenomonal woman such as
her. I hardly ever see Baba get so excited over a new item. And its good
to see her enjoy this car.
Jack spent most of his free time working on his BMW. Its amazing to
watch someone so confident with their mechanical skills. I like that
Jack is a take charge kind of guy.
The visit to PA went by too quickly. But I plan to return in a few weeks
anyways. Btw this was the 1st time I visited my family without my
hearing aid. My hearing aid has been MIA since mid Feb. I suspect years
from now ill find it under some other crap I own. Both Mom and Baba were
easy to lip read. Thank goodness I can.
Szymanski and I are through. I'm tired of
tip toeing around a so called "friend."
I'm tired of worrying what I say will
cause a major scene in public. I'm tired
of what I write to her will be used against
me later in her blog. Most of all, I'm just
tired of Szymanski and jumping thru
hoops to prove that I'm a loyal friend. I'm
not the one who drives people away such
as Ty and Joe Joy. I respect other peoples
boundaries and want only their happiness.
I don't waste my time feeling jealous
of my friends based on their looks, academic
achievements, job opportunity, hearing
status or whatever else Szymanski
spends her time doing.
She wonders why I didn't want to meet
Floyd. The reaosn why I didn't want her
to be jealous if he happened to talk to
me specifically instead of her. Its happened
in the past with her sex/fuck buddy John
who is a film maker. She would scream and
cry if he said so much as a hello to me.
And poor VA, she is getting the brunt of
the whole Floyd fiasco!
Szyamnski emails me every few weeks questioning
my loyalty. And every few weeks I would
remind her I have 2 pt jobs and student
teach the rest of the time. But did it
make a difference? NO! Unlike her, I
WORK! I attended school, and did the
work needed in order to get a degree.
I certainly don't sit around trying to
convince everyone around me, that I'm
the smartest person in the room. If
she's so damn smart, why did she fuck
up 2 jobs I helped her get? Her response
is she doesn't care about the bosses,
only her students. Well duh! It doesn't
matter if you like the BOSS, that's not
relevant, what matters is if you
conduct yourself in a professional
manner on the job and she DIDN'T!
Now she's blogging about Jack, using
his full name and basically lying or
distorting the truth to make herself
look favorable in comparison to him.
plus she has the NERVE to say Jack
thinks women can be raped because
they're dress provactively. That's NOT
what he said. What he said was a
woman dress in a way that calls
attention to herself and goes walking
around in the middle of the night, isn't
exactly the smartest thing to do. It
would in a way increase the woman's
chance of being raped. Never did he say
she deserves it. Just that a person
needs to be proactive and aware of
their environment. Same concept, if
you leave your keys in the ignition of
a car, and someone stole your car. You
didn't deserve it, but you sure didn't
help yourself either. But instead of
telling the truth she wants to do
damage to his name and now she
tells me she's afraid of Jack. How
convienent. If that's the case, why
write about him REPEATEDLY in her
blog if she's so afraid?
Jack has seen Szyamnski 1x since
last christmas at Cains apt.. He was
civil and so was she. She wasn't afraid
of him that day. And she hasn't been
contacted by Jack either. So what is
she afraid of? I think its another one of
her victim mentality working, finding a
way to get people to feel sorry for her,
is something she excels in. Only problem
is I don't feel sorry for her. I feel
disgusted for all the times I ever stood
up for her when she acted like an ass,
which was numerous times.
I have NEVER known someone who enjoys
being a victim as much as she does. When
does her action have consquences? When
will people around her stop tip toeing and
living in fear she'll blow up again? When
will Szymanski APOLOGIZE for her repeated
behavior?
I blame her a lot for Jacks bad experience
within the Deaf community. When we started
dating he was learning ASL. Fast forward a
few months and every time Beth sees
Jack, she would lecture him on how to
act in the deaf community or try to
force ASL lessons on him when he wasn't
interested. Then it got to the point where
he stopped trying. And did she let up? NO,
she kept at him and only recently since
she no longer is welcomed in my home,
Jack has been signing more and has expressed
interest in attending deaf events, as long
as she isn't there. Jack can't enjoy him-
self as long as she there, being needy,
butting into conversations that do not
concern her and then throwing a fit
when people don't cave into her whims.
I'm not gonna allow someone like this
in my home who won't take responsibility
for their actions, regardless of the causes.
Everyone has skeletons in their closets.
But what matters is how you deal with
those issues. Do you use it to excuse
your behavior all the time or? She's being
a major BITCH right now. Saying she's
finally telling the truth. So what does
that mean? That's she been lying all
this time? She NEVER ever acknowledge
Jack's concerns which were the following;
-her inability to control herself both in
private and in public
-her tendency to overstay her welcome
-her tendency to smear any man's name
who doesn't comply to her wishes or
think she's the hottest woman on the
planet.
GROW UP Szymanski, this is not 1993,
Its 2008! Stop being so immature.
Stop playing the victim and learn
to deal with problems in a manner
that's acceptable. Or if you can't at
least APOLOGIZE when you do become
out of control which is often.
This is the 2nd friend in my entire life
I've cut ties with. I don't easily throw
away friendships, but I certainly
don't feel as if there's a friendship
left to save when it means everything
has to be Szymanski's way or she'll
have a temper trantrum. She has no
idea how often she embarrasses
people with her actions.
And Im not gonna miss her Martyr routines!
So LONG SZYMANSKI, good riddance!
I was telling Baba that lately I feel like
Humpty Dumpty. That "all the King's
horses and all the King's men, couldn't
put Humpty Dumpty back together again."
Meaning its been 1 thing after another,
first I fell like a month ago and banged my
knee up good! Then I had a bad head cold
which went away. Days later I developed
a bad chest cold and finally that's almost
gone. That's part of the reason why I'm so
behind in my blog. Between being sick, paper
work and all of my jobs. It left me with
little motivation to blog. But knowing
that Jack & I leave tmw morning for PA
has lifted my spirits tremendously!
Some bad news that's occurred since
I last wrote.
#1 got my taxes done, and guess what?! I
owe taxes! Can you believe it? I made
ONLY 14K due to student teaching and
not having enough steady work for 2007.
My job at the SLC didn't DEDUCT taxes,
Grr! I remember when they told me that
I was concerned bc whenever I fill out
my W-4 forms, I always claim 0. That
way the government takes out as much
as possible ahead of time. Usually this
allows for a refund but not this year.
Nope I owe $237. I've never owed the IRS
before and it really surprised me when
the accounted finished preparing my taxes.
What's worse is I called the IRS to set up
a payment plan and they wanted to charge
me $105 just to set up a payment plan.
Hello! That's almost half of what I owe.
So the woman who I spoke to on the ph
thru relay suggested I let the IRS bill
me and pay the small fee that will be
slapped on my balance. I guess that's what
I'm gonna have to do.
#2 the bed Jack and I got recently is
wrecking my back :( I've taken to sleeping
on the floor to alleviate the back ache
I've been having for a week now. I will
see the doctor today at 2pm for my back.
Most likely get a referral for a chiropractor.
We will probably sell the bed for a new one.
I think no more futons but a real bed, with
a frame, box spring and a GOOD mattress.
#3 I probably won't be able to bring my cat
Tom back to NYC till June or so. Where I
moved to doesn't allow pets or probably
has a pet deposit fee that Jack & I don't
have right now. We agreed its better to
wait till June to get settled and then
bring Tom back. But I've been apart from
Tom since x-mas and I miss my kitty
bastard! I miss him following me around
and rubbing up against my legs. I even miss
his moody mood swings! I'm just gonna
have to get my "cat fix" while I'm at
Moms. And the rest of the time, I can
always visit Cleo and Fool at Cains apt.
But I also have some good news
For a VERY VERY early bday gift, Baba
ordered me a "gate table" and "revolving
island cart" from surprisesurprise.com,
Check it out, click on 5 Boroughs for
the pictures. I wanted this gate table
bc it saves a LOT of space, Knob had 1
and I'm thrilled to have 1 of my own!
Another piece of good news is Jack's health
ins can be used by me as well! Which means
I can finally go to the doctor as needed or
get rxs with a small co-pay!
Lastly the kids/students films are comming
along nicely. They should be done and edited
by June.
That about catches you up about my life
for the past few weeks.
Jack and I had this dumb spat last nite.
And it really sucks because I hate when
we fight/argue. Someone always walks
away hurt. We solved it already but it
was a lousy way to end what was a
perfectly nice day. He and I hardly argue
anymore so I am grateful for that and
know we can't go through life without
ever fighting. But damnit, I'm gonna try!
As for living together, we work really
well together. Our apt is so clean, you
could eat off the floor if you wanted to!
Ofc Jack doesn't want anyone eating
ANYTHING off the floor ;)
We still need to buy a microwave. There
was this really cool red retro one at
Target a few weeks ago that I wanted
to buy but Jack vetoed it. But then we
negiotated that he would pick out the
curtain for the living room so when I can
I'm getting me that microwave (I'm
hoping its still in stock or available on-
line).
Mostly we need right now are, pots and
pans. A set of matching towels (Jack
wants to buy this, as he knows what
brand he likes). Set of matching dishes,
I will choose the pattern. Something mod
ofc. Eventually we need to get some kind
of cabinet fixture for our kitchen. There's
just NO room. Mom brought me a ton of
Tupperware and I can't begin to fathom
where I will put it all. I may have to pick
and choose which ones to bring back to
NYC from Passover. I also need a small
foot stool for the top kitchen cupboards
and for the storage area above our ONLY
closet (in the whole apt) located in our
bedroom.
Later this month is Jacks bday. I'm at lost
what to buy a guy who lives for technology.
Even if I had money to buy him a cool
gadget I wouldn't know which one to buy?
Last year I got him several things but the
best gift I brought him was a sushi set.
Hmm we need to get that out of storage
as well.
On Friday I will attend the show
LAGCC for the CJ Jones comedy
show with my friend Martin. King and I
will SSP for him for the show. Then after-
wards hit DPHH. I'm their newest
photographer so make sure you SMILE
when you see me with the camera! Then
Saturday, I'm volunteering for MICA.
I did the same last weekend and met
some really nice people. Not many old faces
from 2 years ago. Some people still hold
grudges against Jade. While she may have
made some mistakes, she did the best
she could. And when we met up last weekend
she even told me she knew she made
mistakes but what else can she do other
than to learn from them and move on. Lifes
too short to stew over past errors. I say
let bygones be bygones.
Missing some of my friends who live else-
where like Sorry, Pate, Ronnie, Karen, Dj,
Mark, Flash, Dan and so on. I want to
go to DC this spring after I'm done student
teaching, which by the way I only have 90
more hours to go! Like Ronnie always says
"Whee!"
"Live as if you were to die tomorrow.
Learn as if you were to live forever."
- Mahatma Gandhi
